So, moving on from the rant.
His slut over at http://thoughtsfromhisslut.blogspot.co.uk/?zx=ebb5065c610694bb asked...
At what point in your life did you know you were submissive?
Early twenties i would say, was when i became more aware of the desires i had, just didnt have a name for them, i had these fantasies of wanting to be dominated, tied up, instructed in what to do etc it was a while before i actually did anything about exploring them though.
You often journal your struggles. Is it easier for you to share that side than share the more intimate side?
I do, dont i lol. My biggest issue, and what causes a lot of my struggles is i do hold myself back from letting go completely, as soon as i feel like im there, i get scared and want to pull back. I had to think on this question, i dont think its so much that i find it easier, its just easier for me to write about these times because i find it helpful to write it out, it helps in giving myself perspective..not sure than makes any sense or not.
Are you afraid of judgement if you shared the intimate times between you two?
No, there have been many posts that i have written that are more likely to have people judging, none of those being intimate in nature. I should make more of an effort to write about our intimate moments, because there are many of them, but intimacy for me can range from an s/m session, the connection between us at these times for me is intimate, to see his desire for me, and mine for him, to simply cuddling up in bed and falling asleep, intimacy takes on many forms.
as an add on, was going to make it a separate post, but im not!
Master and i have a different point of view about this, so im putting it out here for anyone that would like to give their thoughts...hmm im counting on submissive solidarity here lol
My point of view
I do not define myself as bi-sexual, i have been with women at his request, its not something i enjoy, to the extent given a choice i would not do it, he would like me to be more enthusiastic, to learn to love it, embrace it, and believes i can in time. I however am of the mind that you cannot make someone something they are not, i can try, but ultimately i have no desire for other women, it just doesnt do it for me, so i cannot see that i will ever be jumping for joy about being with a woman sexually.
His point of view
He thinks i can and should be able to, based on the fact that i have grown to love elements of bdsm that once i wasnt keen on. (whereas i feel thats completely different).
So thoughts, and anyone felt like i have and eventually learned to love it?