Ok, so the thing is on occasions i get comments that query aspects of my relationship, some comments are non offensive, but some are just plain judgemental..strangely enough these are mostly anonymous...go figure!
So im just going to point people in this direction in future..saves repeating myself....and plus for anyone new that happens to 'fall' upon this blog.....this is my perspective.....you may need coffee to survive this post...its a long un.
Sometimes posts appear on blogs about abuse, how do we define what is abuse in this realm of ttwd? who is anyone to say "thats not right".
Within this blog, there are posts written that one may find disturbing, perhaps one may even come away thinking its abusive, that we're sick perverts (that may be true!), there are posts that i have wrote, and no doubt will be more to come where im ranting, perhaps upset, angry, they probably wont and dont portray my Master in a very positive light...coz i think he is being a right nasty bastard.
Here's the thing.
These posts are not representative of the whole situation, you are 'seeing' a small part of a bigger picture, but hey this is my little corner, where its my thoughts...you dont 'see' his, and sometimes you dont get to see the 'calm after the storm'...your just getting the storm full on.
Within this blog, there are posts that contain details of s/m, sometimes we 'play' hard (yeah i know how does one define hard!), hmm.. a great night for me is being suspended, whipped, needles stuck in my bits and bobs, clamped and weighted....and a good hard caning to finish off.....the more tears, screams, blood and sweat the better.
Sometimes, he does things to me i dont like, i dont want, and sometimes im just simply not in the mood to 'endure' the things i do like usually, this does not deter him...sometimes its just simply about sating his needs.
Here's the thing.
Im a masochist (im guessing you guessed that) and he is a sadist, s/m for us is mostly mutual enjoyment, on the times that i dont enjoy it as it is happening...well thats just too bad..but the oddest thing is its later, afterwards that im on a high...i get off on that i have endured for him, that i have given him what he needs, i love to look in the mirror, proud of the marks that he has given me......i would do it all again.....and i do.
I adore humiliation, degradation....heck yes i love to be treated like the proverbial doormat!
I love it...thats really all that needs to be said about that.
This is M/s, TPE, its how we are, who we are, im happy a damn sight more than i am unhappy, i am loved and i love back, i dont live in fear, i am free because im accepted and embraced for being me.
So, when you read posts that contain any of this, whether it be my rants, im upset or its s/m and humiliation and if you do find any of it, or some of it upsetting, disturbing or you question is this abusive?...you dear reader(s) have the control here....you can choose...
A) to walk away, to not read anymore, im ok with that, im not hung up on stats or how many followers i have.
B) to ask, i dont mind any questions or queries (although i cant promise to have any answers), what i do mind is please just be respectful and i will offer you the same courtesy.
C) to leave me a comment telling me how im in an abused relationship, but i just dont see it...in which case..really just go back to reading 50 shades if you want romance and fantasy coz you clearly shouldnt be here!..reality too much huh?
D) to sit back, enjoy the ride, the ups, the downs, the moaning and the ranting.
E) to respect the fact that im an intelligent (ok that could be debatable at times) 38 year old woman, im not a newbie, i have been with Master years, i may not always know what im talking about but i do know my own mind, i know what makes me happy.
"We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but its another to think that yours is the only path" Paulo Coelho.