*if you want to ask a question(s) you can either leave a comment on blog, any post, take your pick lol, or via email, and ooooh he has let me join Fetlife, early days will see how it goes, my nic there is Histori, if your a member there, will reply to all in order so bear with me*
For V, my friend.
I was surprised at what you wrote, i dont know why but for some reason i was expecting it to be worse, sorry lol and i do appreciate your kind words, will pay you later.
Before i get to your question, a few things i would like to address.
You do seem to find it hard to understand that being submissive, submitting to someone, implys a weakness, that its demeaning, you imagine some down trodden woman that cant function without a man telling them what to do etc (or indeed a woman, men can be submissive to).
Well, you know me enough to know that that is not me! on the contrary most, of course i cant speak for all, submissives are in fact strong woman, would you say im a cowed down woman? no.
I do not bow down to just anybody, you should know that as well, i submit to the bossman, and my submission in its entirety is his, the way i am with him is exclusive, its not like im going to automatically submit to someone just because they are dominant.
We have talked over and over about the safeword issue, i can only repeat that you neednt worry, but keep the shears handy just in case lol
What do i get out of submitting? its liberating, its who i am, its what i need and thrive on, and makes me stronger, not weaker.
Your question......"why you feel that it would change how I think of you if I knew more? and I don't want the answer you usually give me"
The answer i give you i cant change because its how it is.
Before you think it, because i know you do, its not because i dont trust you, i trust you just as much as i do the bossman, albeit in a different way.
There are many elements of mine and the bossmans relationship that you dont understand, and thats based on what you know now, you said it yourself here and to my face, and i get that, i cant expect you to understand because you cant identify with it, its not for you, you said that also.
I am confident therefore that if i was to tell you more, answer all the questions you have asked, which i wont, it would lead to you being even less understanding, i guess it is just simply that unless one is in it, doing it etc they wont get it, we cant all be the same.
I dont spill all about everything here, although yes there is certainly more i talk about here than i do with you, but then its different here, in blogger because there are likeminded people, you want to know, but you dont need to know, just trust me on that.