*a commercial break from q&a for a well needed moan/rant, then i must catch up on comments, getting behind*
So he has been talking to this couple to potentially meet, for yeah you know kinky stuff.
He gives the female sub my telephone number so we can talk, but then her dominant texts me to say she would rather we communicate by email, she emails me to say she would rather it be by text then by phone...with me so far!
So i text her, im nice, kind....coz thats the person i am.....until i get pissed off.
Master had said that they dont 'play' as hard as we do so, i thought to put her at ease i said to her it was awkward this sort of thing, not knowing what to say, she replied "I know" so ok, to break the ice i asked her if there was anything she would like to know about us, has she played with others before, didnt get a reply.
Ok, thinking maybe she is uncomfortable, i said to her that i have very recently joined Fetlife (they are on there)and although there is little info on it at the moment, im working on adding to it, plus there is a link to my blog on it (in hindsight it might be for the best she doesnt read my blog!), not that it matters because she never answered anything i asked! and the reply was
"dont see why we need to do this, am happy to leave it up to the men"
I spoke to Master about it and he suggested i text her to say i needed to speak to her, after all its what her dom had asked for as well....and she never replied at all...ok its been 10 hours, but really how long does it take to do a brief text message.
OK, so i have tried, i have been nice..now
im not feeling very nice, the only thing that is stopping me from telling her exactly what i think about her attitude is....it would more than likely get me punished..and well,,,,yeah dont want that, but its got my back up, so well if we do meet up..just how joyful is that going to be?
I figure she is either
a) not wanting to meet up...and thats ok, coz quite frankly i dont want anything to do with you either, well hmm, maybe she is nervous, but for goodness sake how many olive branches can i hold out?
b) she wants to meet up, but just doesnt want any communication with me for whatever reason...and thats ok because now i want to meet with them, i didnt, but i do now, because she likes playing pain games, and so do i, and slut (that's what she likes to be called) i can play them better! im now inspired because im pissed off....ooh tori put your claws away!
Master you need to beat and torture me more i need to get back on form!
*ok edited to add, im pissed off (aka a little scared) because meeting others is something i struggle with, we are working through that, and her responses, or rather lack of responses is making me nervous, the times we have played with others, i have gotten on with everyone, (apart from one situation where the couple were fine at the time, but not afterwards), the communication has been fine, so im unsettled and im reacting defensively, worrying about if this is what she is like now, whats she going to be like face to face*
Why do i have the feeling im going to get the "its not a competition" lecture. I know that, i do, its not about that.