Thursday 5 March 2015

Growth, new kink and a holiday

Roz asked

what is the biggest area you feel you have grown since being with your Master and what is the area you would say he has grown in the most?

For me i would say its being more secure/confident in myself, self image etc i have a mother who has never made me feel like im good enough, but well lets not go there.  There are some areas we are still working on, in being confident, but overall when i look back to when we first got together i have come a long way, i even wore a shortish skirt the other week on a night out together .....i would never have done that a year ago, or  even 6 months ago...i know not a big deal for some..but to me it was....it was progress, and i like things about myself that once i thought was unhealthy or wrong.

He makes me feel good about myself, that im good enough not just for him, but for me, that im worth something, im needed.

For him, wow, ok umm difficult lol..because he's an old man he has done a lot of growing!

Patience and tolerance (yeah i know thats 2 things lol) i would say, he doesnt talk a lot about his past subs/slaves but from what he has said over the years i get the impression i have been the more difficult, in the respect of some of the struggles i have had and do still have.  I do wander if many dominants would have or could put up with me, but he has never given up on me, he has never shouted, or lost his temper when there have been times i could quite well understand if he had done.  He is the most infuriatingly calm and in control person i know, not with the sat nav though, she gets more verbal abuse than i do!

Are there things kink wise you haven't explored yet and would like to?

oh yes, water torture is something i would love to try, being tied up and dunked in a full size water tank, alas its one of the very few things he has little to no interest in.  Objectification is another one, we do a fair bit of that but its something i would like to expand on in different/other ways, i like being treated (apart from the punishment when he was) coldly, like im worthless, and simply well and object to be used just for his enjoyment.

If you could vacation anywhere, where would it be?

Egypt, i love history, read a lot non-fiction books about history, people, places, and i would like to see the pyramids, the tombs. to explore the culture, architecture i have read so much about...but this is subject to change at any time.

Thank you Roz

and anon asked

What the nastiest thing he has ever done to you in detail?

A couple years back, he made me eat at a Cantonese restaurant, im still too traumatised to go into details..sorry.


8 comments:

  1. Hi Tori, wonderful answers, enjoyed reading this and learning a little more about you :) Thank you for answering.

    Your first answer made me smile :) water torture huh? That would freak me out too much lol. Egypt is s great choice!

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Thank for the questions Roz

      One for you...where is your ideal holiday?

      There are many places i would like to travel but at the moment Egypt comes in first lol

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  2. Awesome answer tori. I just love this Q & A thing. We really all get to know each other better, don't we?

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    1. Thanks

      So do i, it gets everyone motivated as well, and interacting more, which is great.

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  3. I just read your comment on Kaya's blog that you will be branded for your 40th. Have you picked out the brand and who will do it? It should be another major step in your submission.

    FD

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    1. Still undecided FD, i would like his initials, or perhaps a symbol that represents slavery.

      I want him to do it, i need him to do it.

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  4. What is your favorite meal? Do you get more enjoyment from main dishes or desserts?

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    1. he he

      Italian food is my favourite, im more a savoury person than sweet, but then being a diabetic im limited to sweet stuff anyway.

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