Everyone has fantasies dont they? some are plain unrealistic...although im absolutley convinced i am the woman for Johnny Depp.
I have lots of fantasies, many i have been lucky enough to experience, some didnt live up to the fantasy, and then there are those that just are best left as fantasy, some are simply well ones im not comfortable in discussing here.
There are also those that are possible, but im unsure of if they make reality will i be ok with that? what would the repurcussions be if i wasnt, but it would be too late in the moment? would they impact on our relationship?
Over the years i have expressed my desire to watch the bossman having sex with another woman, i have watched another woman give him a blowjob and that didnt faze me at all, no jealousy, i was turned on by watching, but that was...crikey 3 years ago if not longer, when we did mix and play with others. There has been no sex with others, and i have and still dont have any desire to be with another man....i have given another dominant a blowjob before with bossman watching and i didnt like it.
Yesterday i mentioned to him that this was still something i thought about a lot, i like the idea of being tied to a chair, gagged and watching him with another woman, i dont want to join in, i have engaged sexually with another woman and its not really something that holds any appeal, im bisexual coz he says i am! anyway i just mentioned it and moved on, thinking no more of it.
Today he anounced out of the blue "better get looking then for a woman I can fuck, so you can watch" and..and i wasnt expecting that, but more so i wasnt expecting this sudden rush of jealousy especially as i have always maintained im not a jealous minded person, but being confronted with it actually happening....has brought about these emotions that are new to me...and i dont like it.
I want to put the worms back into the can and leave them there.