"Sometimes surrender means giving up trying to understand and becoming comfortable with not knowing" Anon
Im so tempted to print that quote out, blow it up and stick it on the fridge.
I am a believer in questioning, but i do think there can be a point where one can over question and im guilty of that. I like explanations, answers, why we are like we are, what influences us to engage in the ttwd, what makes us submissive, what makes them dominant, what goes on in their heads, why do i like being hurt, why does he like hurting me.. etc etc
I want to understand so many things about M/s, tpe, dominance, submission etc...
When really as the quote suggests maybe surrendering to giving up trying to understand is the best way to come to terms with accepting that its ok to not know, maybe in accepting all of this i can just 'be'.
I can be exasperating with my eternal questioning, the bossman i think has a more it is what it is outlook, maybe its just a case of he has come to terms with who he is and what he likes and is comfortable with that.....and im not.....although i do believe im gradually getting there.
The bossman has said on a few occassions that i just need to let go and embrace who i am and what i enjoy, and i know he is right because when i do let my guard down i free myself of inhibitions, and im all the better for it.