Im struggling at the moment to remain focused, im slipping back into old habits that i thought i had long since moved on from....and i let it get on top of me rather than address it.
and well im English you know..that old stiff upper lip mentality....too proud to admit that i need help or rather simply just to admit that im finding things hard....because to admit so would be weak, and im acting out.
My tone has not been respectful, demanding what i think im entitled to.
and i dont listen very well...or rather i listen but i dont really listen.
and he only has so much patience when i get attitude.
I should not read more into what he says, he warned me he was and would be extremely busy and distracted and it had no bearing on us..i should trust what he says and believe in it.
and im sorry.