So i know im not great at admitting to having struggles, but i did and well it was ok (alright i did have that one anonymous comment and an email) but it was a relief, just to get it out that actually sometimes, although thankfully not often, i hit a wall and it all just seems so difficult and confusing.
I remember reading one of lil's posts and some paragraphs resonated with me, particularly as it was around this time that i was having personal conflict.
"I occasionally come across blogs that are all sunshine and roses--I move right
along. Call me cynical if you want, (Alpha does) but life isn't all rainbows and
It, quite literally, takes plenty of shit to grow flowers.
I see my blog described elsewhere, it is most often with some variation of
"lil's struggles speak to me." Not an award winner for perfection perhaps, but I
think we all struggle sometimes, and pretending that we don't doesn't help us
Im by no means belittling blogs that are always positive and happy, would rather that than all doom and gloom, but i do tend to lean towards blogs that let people have a glimpse of when it is difficult, when it is a struggle, those that are living it through the good times and the not so good times.
They are the ones i recommend to those looking for a more realistic insight into this lifestyle.
Im not a newbie, nor have i been doing this for decades, but im past the 'sub frenzy' stage, i have been through the realisations of separating fantasy from reality, so when i get mail critiscising me for potraying ttwd, specifically M/s in a negative light because it shouldnt be difficult and im putting off those interested in tpe that may come accross my blog, i find it insulting.
In fact i will go as far as saying im making it more realistic because im opening up about the difficult times, no im not saying that my relationship is the blueprint for how it should be, but please if you want the fairytale versions of ttwd and all that it encompasses reach for your kindle.
cynical i may be, although it could be said its being more realistic!