I have been thinking today about whether i am more submissive after a beating and why it makes me this way. I would say im naturally submissive anyway but i am aware that if a period of time goes by without any form of physical control whether this be when we are together or instructions given via phone or text i tend to start to become more challenging in how i respond to Him. I dont think i do it intentionally or at least i can say i dont do it on purpose to get a reaction because more often than not its not a reaction i like, i do know however when we are together after a caning or whatever He chooses to use i am at my most vunerable and therefore more pliable and likely to submit more willingly.
I dont however think this applies to everyone after all we all are different and i certainly dont condone beating someone just to gain compliance so im not implying that this is the case for me, however i can see in some circumstances as i know how i feel after any form of discipline where it would work for me, simply because i do become more submissive. I think also it has more to do with the fact that as we dont live together and even though we have regular contact when we do meet up i need and want to be put in my place and being disciplined puts me there.
I wander as well if it makes a difference if i enjoy the pain or not and i dont think it does as i tend to feel the benefits more afterwards than at the time which is another reason why im more responsive afterwards. I was speaking with someone who found it strange that i dont get much pleasure at the time, and its not that i dont at all in some circumstances i do if it is within my comfort zone, once out of that no i dont enjoy it but i know within a short period of time afterwards i am comforted by the afterpain and the marks that are left so as much as i may not be thinking it at the time it is worth it.