For the man

Because i know i havent been my best these last few weeks.

When i feel down,
i want you above me
When i forget myself,
i need you to remind me
When i lose myself
i need you to find me

You may be my Master, my Sir, my Owner, a dominant, a sadistic bastard and a dirty perv, but your a man, a man that has given me and shown me so much more than i could ever return.

It doesnt seem like its so many years ago that we stood in that room together, the first time we met, i didnt care about all the safe calls rules etc, and not playing on first meets, i was in awe of you, i was nervous, wasnt sure how to go about things, but i didnt need to worry about how/what to do, you took control immediately.....im laughing now when i remember when you said "strip" and i said "what you want me to take my clothes off".....shocked that you would ask such a thing!

So many, many firsts you have given me, some i was very eager about, others not so much, but now they are things i love...some i still dont like, but i trust you to know whats best, and i need to give you what you need.

The laughs at my naivety, "ooh there pretty nipple clamps, i like the chain, whats it for?" and you pulled it!......i screamed my head off, think i would have punched you if i hadnt had my hands cuffed behind my back.

The first time we had sex, i wasnt comfortable with myself, i wanted to hide my nakedness, you wouldnt allow it, i was conscious of being overweight, stretch marks, lumpy bits, you didnt care, and when your head starting heading between my legs, i was horrified, not had that done before (sad being as i was in my late 20's)

and it was awesome, couldnt believe i could cum from having that done!

I asked for weights and clamps on my labia, i had this silly notion in my head it would be nice!
Oh my god, it was horrible, you obliged, of course, and i should have known better from the evil grin on your face that it was not going to be as nice as i imagined!

as soon as you had put them on i was begging for them to come off...."too bad" you said as you swung them between my legs, beginning to think i had bitten off more than i could chew with you.

The first time i disobeyed you, i was topping from the bottom, acting the brat, to get what i wanted, the punishment was harsh, i got what i wanted, but a damn sight more than what was enjoyable, my first lesson in learning that obedience was important to you, and if i want something.....ask, bratty behaviour would not be tolerated.

Oh the fun we have during s/m, i tend to i think sometimes portray you on here as this cruel and nasty sadist, but we do have many laughs during s/m, you have a very wicked sense of humour which i love, and the desire for me i see on your face as your hurting me, giving me what i need, inspires me to want/take more for you.

and the cuddles, your arms wrapped around me as we drift off to sleep....my favourite moment.

I know i have been needy/insecure as of late with all the work you have going on, being away etc, im missing the kink etc but i want you to know as much as love all of this, all of what i have said above about you/us......and you are my Master, my Owner etc, forget all the kink, the titles etc its the man i love.