ancilla_ksst asked
How did you discover emotional masochism? Was it something you knew you had or did he bring it out of you? with examples?
Oh this one has had me thinking, hence why i have taken a while to get to it, i have had it in drafts because i started it and then wasnt happy with it lol
I think why im struggling with writing this is because for me its very much intertwined with verbal humiliation, in fact perhaps for me emotional masochism is verbal humiliation so im getting nowwhere in trying to separate the two...if that makes any sense!
hmm example..this sort of thing really gets me going, because what humiliation does for me, is it allows me to just completely let go, more than anything else does, no inhibitions...just bring it on, im a humiliation whore lol
"you want my piss bitch?" and i dont want to admit i do, but yeah i do "beg me, show me how much you want it" and i do, and all the while he is saying things like "you disgusting slut, what sort of woman begs for piss" "have you no dignity, look at yourself, on your hands and knees, dirty filthy cunt"
"open your mouth" and he pisses into my mouth and again its just things like "you love it dont you bitch? being your Masters urinal, its all your good for?"
He is guarranteed a damn good fuck after something like that, i cant keep my hands off him, just brings out the slut in me.
But yeah thats the sort of emotional masochism that i enjoy, where im made to feel disgusting, worthless, total debasement.
Its definitely not something i knew i had in me, i had never even come across it, heard of it even before i got with the bossman, so i would say yes he brought it out of me, when he started exploring humiliation with me that it really came out.
I totally get that. I think it was the same thing for me. I never knew it was there until he started trying a few things, verbal humiliation first and then later other non verbal things too, which may be even better, or combined like you say- physical and verbal together, best of all. Very hot, I think.
ReplyDeleteIt is hot, i love it, s/m used to my favourite kink but now its humiliation, it just does it for me in every way lol
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Make no mistake about it - this is not exactly my thing, but I admire your ability to recognize and put it out there.
ReplyDeleteHaving said that, I wouldn't have thought my "things" were part of me either until this man I am with brought them out. However, in retrospect, I can see that they always were in some of the men I dated in the past and some of the things I did.
I guess what I am saying is maybe the person we're with made us aware, but maybe it just took us a while to find the person who could do what we already wanted.
Oh pshaw... you are right! This is a hard one to write about / comment on.
I do believe that its within us, but just perhaps it takes that right man, relationship to let it come out, and feel ok about it.
DeleteIt was hard, and im still not satisfied that i explained what i meant lol
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Oooh!
ReplyDeleteThat's such a tough question, I love how you responded.
For me, I think of it like, my submission needing an audience--the right audience--and once that was found with him, it is amazing what came out :)
It was a toughie, not really happy with my reply lol, just struggling to put into words what it means to me,
DeleteBut blimey i love what you said.....perfect!
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'my submission needing an audience--the right audience'
ReplyDeleteomg, what Blueuame said!
yep i loved that too....just sums it up perfectly.
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