How did you discover emotional masochism? Was it something you knew you had or did he bring it out of you? with examples?
Oh this one has had me thinking, hence why i have taken a while to get to it, i have had it in drafts because i started it and then wasnt happy with it lol
I think why im struggling with writing this is because for me its very much intertwined with verbal humiliation, in fact perhaps for me emotional masochism is verbal humiliation so im getting nowwhere in trying to separate the two...if that makes any sense!
hmm example..this sort of thing really gets me going, because what humiliation does for me, is it allows me to just completely let go, more than anything else does, no inhibitions...just bring it on, im a humiliation whore lol
"you want my piss bitch?" and i dont want to admit i do, but yeah i do "beg me, show me how much you want it" and i do, and all the while he is saying things like "you disgusting slut, what sort of woman begs for piss" "have you no dignity, look at yourself, on your hands and knees, dirty filthy cunt"
"open your mouth" and he pisses into my mouth and again its just things like "you love it dont you bitch? being your Masters urinal, its all your good for?"
He is guarranteed a damn good fuck after something like that, i cant keep my hands off him, just brings out the slut in me.
But yeah thats the sort of emotional masochism that i enjoy, where im made to feel disgusting, worthless, total debasement.
Its definitely not something i knew i had in me, i had never even come across it, heard of it even before i got with the bossman, so i would say yes he brought it out of me, when he started exploring humiliation with me that it really came out.