I cycled 61 miles yesterday with my best mate (fondly referred to as The Loon) and im numb, i cant even feel myself pee (hey im a sharing kind of girl), and my ass and thighs feel like they have been thoughrly beaten, im sore and aching this morning but as my mate cheerfully kept saying "no pain no gain"...yeah right im not feeling it at the moment and as i pointed out to her at least when im feeling numb and sore from s/m i get a few orgasms out of it.
We stopped for half an hour to rest and the loon in her matter of fact blunt way said "I said to nige (her hubby) that I wouldnt mind watching you and the bossman having an s/m session" my first thought was im glad she knows the heimlich maneuver because i nearly choked on my banana, then absolutley not, get that idea right out of your head, there is no way i will let that happen. I have always been open with her to a certain extent of what we do because i trust her implicitly and she is in a way more sexually confident than i am and isnt judgemental, heck if she knows im marked she pesters to have a look at them...it intrigues her.
Then what with those books making headline news which she has read and we have discussed, its conjured up these images that she finds exciting and she is all for sexual experimentation..not quite sure her hubby is as enthusiastic..although i did laugh when she said she made him read the books. So yeah now she just wants to watch, and im not being co-operative, she doesnt see what the big deal is, its not like she hasnt seen me naked before and she has (in a non sexual situation), you have told me bits and pieces..so those are her arguments. Its still a no, and it will always be a no, she pouted for a bit and then moved on in a complete change of subject to talk about her new outfit she has bought for an upcoming wedding....phew subject closed.
The truth of the matter is and what i told her is i dont want her to see me like that, its different talking and reading about it, she only knows a little of what we do, i think it would change her perspective of me and potentially damage our friendship and i wont risk that....what i didnt tell her is there is that teeny weeny part of me that finds the idea appealing, i do get off on voyuerism both watching and being watched but some ideas are best left as ideas...this is just one fantasy of hers that wont make reality.