Wednesday 5 September 2012

Clearing the cobwebs away

I made a beef wellington today, i was well pleased with myself because it was my first attempt and although i enjoy cooking a lot im not very confident and i tend to stick with the same old menu of dishes, they all seemed to like it and well no ones complaining of feeling sick so far...lets just say i have been banned from doing fish pie again...we were all ill!

I emptied all the cupboards in the kitchen, cleaned them out, put everything back in again, then i stood looking at the cupboard under the stairs debating whether i was up to the challenge, its become the place where everyone seems to just stash stuff that they dont know where to put anywhere else, so i took the plunge and i found a new hurty toy that i had bought for Master, hidden it away and forgot all about it, some nipple clamps, weights and lots of rope.....hmmm a nice combination there and usually it would get me going but not today, i put them in a black bag and stuffed them to the back of the cupboard....out of sight, out of mind.

When im feeling out of sorts i tend to over clean if there is such a thing, burning off the frustration to be truthful, im being denied sexual release and he seems to be doing this a lot lately, the only negative aspect of it im finding so far apart from the obvious is my craving for pain it seems is becoming less, im not asking for it, i cant remember the last time i did ask him for pain, when it happens i enjoy it but initially im not in the mood.

Anyway the kitchen looks good enough to be in a show home, i cooked a new meal, got rid of 4 boxes of junk and killed 2 spiders so all in all i feel quite satisfied.









4 comments:

  1. I get that! The cleaning thing - I do it when I am avoiding something. Therapy has been working too well lately and I am not avoiding as much. As a result - my house needs some sprucing for sure! :)

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    1. Im in such a cleaning mood kitty if you lived closer i would offer to come and do it for you lol

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  2. Yes, I clean a lot too when I am feeling off.

    On another note, maybe the craving for pain is diminishing because of the denial. Maybe they are more closely related than you think. I seem to go in phases with my cravings for pain, sometimes I will beg for it but yet at other times I pull away from it....which is of course when I get the most of it.

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    1. Yes thats an interesting thought, i do tend to associate pain with sexual relief or rather pain provides me with an outlet but im getting neither.

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