Tuesday 8 May 2012

Begging

Is it just me that struggles with begging? is there a right or wrong way to do it? if i attempt it i sound and feel like a petulant child which im pretty sure isnt the desired result, it comes accross as whinging it makes me feel insecure and very self concious...in short i feel pathetic.

I suppose it depends on the context the begging is done in, i think its a lot harder to beg for something i really really want rather than begging for something to stop, when its begging for something to stop its raw, genuine begging demonstrating i have been pushed to beyond my limit the desperation is very real.

I am allowed to ask for whatever i would like (within reason) and if its a no then its a no, begging is not an option but if its a "perhaps" or similar then there is more leeway and the option of begging is available.  So then it depends on how much i want what i have asked for and yea my mood plays a significant part, if its something trivial i can shrug it off but sometimes i really really want what i have requested.

Being on my knees in front of him, head lowered to his feet is always a good start, i dont have a problem with that it demonstrates the imbalance of our relationship that i am deferring to him, a position of humility on this occassion acknowledging that he has the control over whether to grant or deny my request.

It starts off reasonably well "please Sir may i ......"  "if it pleases you Sir" etc etc but its trying to keep the frustration at bay and to not let my tone of voice in any way get stroppy, to get past the humiliation and yes as much as i love most forms of humiliation i do find begging humiliating in a way that im not entirely comfortable with which makes it all the more difficult which in turn pleases him all the more witnessing my discomfort.

Begging isnt about negotiating with him or topping from the bottom, it is a verbal and physical way of highlighting the power exchange and it can be over something so very simple, something that we take for granted in everyday life which he can choose to give or take away at his will.

But still im rubbish at it.

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  1. I've never actually gotten to the point of needing something so much to beg for it with Master. I am the kind of person that keeps my wants to the side, and only explain my needs to him as requests, so he tends to give me what I for because it's a very rare occasion.

    He can tell from the sound of my voice the urgency in something, and there's a difference in when we play if I say "no" or "Please no". It can be the difference between three seconds and one.

    I just seem to be the kind of person that's too tough to beg. It would seem fake coming from me, even if heartfelt. If you were to push me to the point of needing you'd be at it for a long time, and then my brat may start showing and I'll simply be willful to watch you continue to push.

    Sometimes, it's amazing when I realize just how far Master has gotten with me.

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    1. hi kitten

      Its a difficult one because although i struggle with begging it pleases him to see me beg and i like to please him so that compels me to do it,he enjoys my turmoil at having to do something i struggle with.

      When playing its different again because he enjoys my begging the most then in a different way because im sufferring and him being a sadist gets off on hearing me beg and its real, i really want it to stop and im powerless to stop it.

      Its more about pleasing him in a way which trumps what im begging for in the first place, if he isnt in the mood for begging then thats made very clear straught away.

      tori

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  2. I too do not feel very comfortable when begging. I always heel it is just not coming out right at all. I suspect I get enough practice that one dayy I will have it down pat.

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    1. lol dancingbarez
      yes i know what you mean i sometimes feel silly but the things we do to please them! im still practicing lol.

      tori

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  3. Begging is one of those things...yanno...it's hard. Sure when they're coming down on your butt with a strap, it's easy to beg (and they love that kind of begging).

    Recently, mouse has had a very hard expressing her needs to Daddy -- like begging for an orgasm. Or even really begging just talk to him about something (he's been so preoccupied with work stuffs).

    Sometimes you just don't want to add to their stress...yanno?

    Hugs,
    mouse

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    1. hi ya mouse

      oh yes begging when its pain and your wanting it to stop is easy well coz it bloody hurts and damn them for loving it lol..but then we love it to really!

      Like you im not to good at expressing at my needs for similar reason as yourself, im wary of hassling him with things that he really could do without, i try to contain myself until its a more suitable time but it doesnt often work out that way.

      tori x

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  4. Even with work stuff, Master always puts our communication on priority. Unless he's at work, and even if on occasion, should there be something I need to talk to him about, I am expected to tell him right away.

    As much as I don't want to add to his stress with it, I know by settling it early, it's much less stressful than if either of us keep something tucked away for even an hour.

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    1. Communication is always a priority i think but alas a skill im not so good at, i tend to let things build up which i know is not the answer and nor what he expects from me. I want to make things easier for him but sometimes that just backfires...im getting better i think lol

      tori

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