Is it just me that struggles with begging? is there a right or wrong way to do it? if i attempt it i sound and feel like a petulant child which im pretty sure isnt the desired result, it comes accross as whinging it makes me feel insecure and very self concious...in short i feel pathetic.
I suppose it depends on the context the begging is done in, i think its a lot harder to beg for something i really really want rather than begging for something to stop, when its begging for something to stop its raw, genuine begging demonstrating i have been pushed to beyond my limit the desperation is very real.
I am allowed to ask for whatever i would like (within reason) and if its a no then its a no, begging is not an option but if its a "perhaps" or similar then there is more leeway and the option of begging is available. So then it depends on how much i want what i have asked for and yea my mood plays a significant part, if its something trivial i can shrug it off but sometimes i really really want what i have requested.
Being on my knees in front of him, head lowered to his feet is always a good start, i dont have a problem with that it demonstrates the imbalance of our relationship that i am deferring to him, a position of humility on this occassion acknowledging that he has the control over whether to grant or deny my request.
It starts off reasonably well "please Sir may i ......" "if it pleases you Sir" etc etc but its trying to keep the frustration at bay and to not let my tone of voice in any way get stroppy, to get past the humiliation and yes as much as i love most forms of humiliation i do find begging humiliating in a way that im not entirely comfortable with which makes it all the more difficult which in turn pleases him all the more witnessing my discomfort.
Begging isnt about negotiating with him or topping from the bottom, it is a verbal and physical way of highlighting the power exchange and it can be over something so very simple, something that we take for granted in everyday life which he can choose to give or take away at his will.
But still im rubbish at it.