The build up

Im undecided whats better or worse not knowing what he has planned in an s/m session or knowing but i do know i love the build up, the anticipation of whats coming..whats he going to do and use? will it be long or short, harsh, mild? the build up starts from the moment he decides when we are going to have a session...i can get weeks notice or much less...it varies.  When it doesnt involve the dungeon it can be instant..a quick unexpected smack accross the face or just an out of the blue command to strip, i love both of these for different reasons.

I know if its the room of doom its pretty much a guarrantee (but not always there are sometimes rare exceptions) thats its going to be harsh and a more intense session and that gives me more of a build up, whereas when its instant there is no build up, i have no time to dwell on what may happen..its happening.

The first thing i will ask is whats he going to do, sometimes he will tell me more often than not he wont, generally speaking he doesnt plan exactly what he is going to do which i find highly amusing considering his anal ways.  The closer the time gets im all over the place, nervous, excited, scared, aroused, anxious and this is how he likes me it took me a long time to realise that, he also tends to not allow me sexual relief for a period of time before so that just adds to the whole build up.

Then its time and one of my favourite moments is standing naked in the room of doom and im quiet always quiet not because i have been told to be but because im in a certain mindset that has accumelated from all the emotions i have built up waiting for this moment.  I love that moment of holding out my wrists for him to attach the leather cuffs which takes no time at all but is such an intense trigger point for me, i like watching him being so focused on his intent before he leads me to where he wants me and the build up is over.

Sometimes i love the build up and the after effects more than the event itself.