Soggy sheets and well im glad he pushed me here

Not bedsheets...you dirty minded people lol

I was lying in the bath, chilling out, searching for something i had wrote in my journal a few months back, and dropped the damn thing in the bath....yes my own fault, i should know better, its not the first time, well not with the journal..but ipod, and a few books have had a soaking before.

I dont think it can be saved, but i have put it in the airing cupboard in hope, i could kick myself really, my journals are important to me, i have kept one on and off (off for many years) since i was 13, my grandmother having bought me my first one for my 13th birthday.....im thinking of buying my daughter her first journal for Christmas, she enjoys writing.

Its odd because when Master set up this blog for me, i wasnt enthusiastic about it, i had my journals, they detailed and do still detail more than what goes in here, so i simply didnt see the point, what was there to gain?

I didnt like the idea of having people know my thoughts, complete strangers getting a glimpse through our windows, i worried about what people might think especially when i first started blogging, and i was conscious of what he would think.....for some reason with the private journals i wasnt concerned in that respect....perhaps its just that this is public.

But im glad he did, for so many reasons, all of you, those i follow, who follow me, the laughs, the support, the discussions that we have had from posts i have written, others have written....the inspiration for ideas, the ideas i dont want him privy to lol

I remember feeling and thinking that this M/s (or ttwd) can be quite lonely especially if one isnt active in a local scene, perhaps lonely isnt the right description, but its restricting in having someone else that you can relate to, that can understand.

Im thinking of this now, because what i was searching for in my journal was something i had written about my reasons for blogging....because i was wanting to give it up, i didnt see the point anymore, i gave good arguments on why i should give up.

Then im reminded of why i actually do blog here, and i have to admit that once again Master knew me better than i knew myself....i needed this and i still do.