Sunday, 15 September 2013

Because giving up isnt an option

So.

I was not giving up, i just felt i needed to step away from here for a little while....but apparently blogging is good for me.

I let my emotions get the better of me and i said something to him that i shouldnt have, i told him i was going on strike (or words to that effect), and then just to make it worse i added "why? do you have a problem with that?"....with the attitude to go with it.

I know that here is my place to put thoughts down, its never been a rule that i have to blog.

I just felt that as i couldnt properly explain how im feeling, or indeed what has brought all this on, i didnt want to just do 'filler posts', nor did i want to end up with loads of depressing posts...because im shit at talking emotions.

i mean what am i meant to say other than im sorry.....when im not.







17 comments:

  1. I have felt that way also.

    Big Hug,
    Joey

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  2. It's all just so much more complex than words can make it sound. The emotions and feelings so much more intense and overwhelming, and conflicting sometimes. It's horrid when it's all off. I hope it comes around for you soon.

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    1. Yes. thats exactly it,

      thankyou gg

      x

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  3. Tori,

    I am so sorry you are struggling right now. Sending hugs! xoxo

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    1. thanks lg

      Its horrid but there is progress.

      x

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  4. it sounds like you need a really good cathartic release. the question is in what way though? could in part be your anxiety about what is scheduled next week?


    i never thought you were quitting, but just taking time for yourself. we all need those moments.

    I really hope you get past this internal turmoil. ((hugs))

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    1. oh you are so right on the mark here

      There is a lot of stuff going on at the moment...and im just not coping with it all well

      thanks

      x

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  5. maybe there's something in the air...Hope it clears soon.

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    1. I hope so lil because im really hating feeling like this.

      x

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  6. Wish I had something profound to say.

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  7. tori, I hope that things get better for you. I don't cope well either when I'm stressed. ((hugs))

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    1. It will im sure of that, i just need to put the effort it in to help it get better.

      thanks

      x

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  8. Advise... Not ttwd... Going on strike was a terrible decision on my part. You obviously love this person... Pretty sure. Me going on strike never benefitted our relationship, except the fact it put me in place. I'm sorry for whatever you are going through and hope it ends soon. There are always trials in any relationship. I hope you're issues will end soon. I'm not nearly as far into this as you, however, I know trials In life and I am a firm believer in that if you try hard enough, all will fall into its natural place. Not so much as when I'm actually going through it. Lots of love!!!!

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    1. Oh i do love him very much.

      Im feeling much more positive this morning than i have done in a while, although i know its babysteps im prepared to deal with it all whereas before i was just shutting it out.

      thankyou

      x

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