Wednesday 21 August 2013

going with the flow or not

Things are good, with us, so why is it when everything is fitting together well its when i have these feelings....oh shit you know i dont even know how to articulate what it is im feeling....its like im waiting for something to go wrong, im expecting it to, because (low self esteem alert) i dont feel worthy of all this, everything we have.

and i know thats sad, pathetic even, and i hate feeling like it, i dont like feeling so damn needy and dependent.

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  1. Ah this the fantastic bubble which is about to burst line of thought. I think it goes with overthinking. Sorry I don't have any wise insights or explanations. Repeat my mantra - nothing bad need happen just because i think it will.
    Hugs
    DF

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    1. I shall keep that mantra in mind.....i do wander if i tend to be on the 'pint half empty' sort of thinking...i really need to stop thinking like this.

      thanks

      x

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  2. You are worthy of all this. You have grown and matured and are a strong female. I know, I have read all your posts.

    I agree with DF's mantra.

    Big Hug,
    joey

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    1. thankyou joey

      i hate it when i get like this....it doesnt help in anyway.

      thanks

      x

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  3. I think when we feel like that it is just another way of saying that we are grateful that we are not where we once were and we know exactly how lucky we are. You are not pathetic, not even a little!

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    1. thankyou Misty

      I should stop feeling sorry for myself, give myself a big kick up the ass...and yes be grateful what i do have.

      x

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  4. You certainly aren't alone. In fact, I like to think that you are in rather good company. Even though it's not a fun feeling...Hope it passes soon!

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    1. Thanks....its not nice is it? and i cant pinpoint why i get like this...its useless.

      x

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  5. I don't have any advice to offer you. Only ((hugs)). Hopefully the feeling goes away soon :)

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    1. thankyou...it will pass just wish i could stop getting like this on occassion.

      x

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  6. I totally understand..take a deep breathe it will be ok..u do deserve this..it will be fine...

    big hugs

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    1. thanks

      I really need a good kick up the ass..or a damn good beating will do lol

      x

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  7. You know what the most confusing thing to me about my Dom and Doms in general tend to be?
    The fact that they want us to burden them.
    That baffles my head because I am a strong, independent, fierce woman and the last thing I want to do is burden my Dom or anyone. But especially him.
    Its okay to feel dependent and its okay to feel unworthy. When I feel like this, I try to shift my perspective to his.
    The not waiting for things to go wrong equation? That just takes practice (in my experience).

    Buckets of hugs.

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    1. Yes this is exactly it!

      Its like i want to hold onto every little bit of independence, some control etc

      thankyou.

      x

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  8. Hugs! I know you are worthy of happiness and good fortune! When I start to feel that way I thank my personal deity, or lucky stars, or whomever looks out for me, and try to suck in all the enjoyment.

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    1. Thankyou ancilla

      Im such a pessimist at times..and it just always seems to be when actually everything is going well!

      x

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  9. Things are good. Stop thinking about it and just live it. Hang in there.....

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    1. they are....they are

      I need to get out of the glum drops and appreciate what i have

      thanks

      x

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