Im ok with asking for what i would like for the most part, sometimes dependent on what i want i still feel embarrassed, maybe a little ashamed...i would much rather he read my mind and did what i wanted without me having to spell it out...usually he has a pretty good idea about what i want....unfortunatley being the mean man that he is..he gets a thrill out of making me spell it out..detailing specifically what i would like him to do to me...he knows it makes me uncomfortable.
I mumble, that i just want him to hurt me, he isnt satisfied with that..."I know, but how do you want me to hurt you?" mmmhmm so i try to reflect it back onto him with the standard..however pleases you? nope bastard aint having that either "What would please me is you telling me what you want, now"
the cane please? and he wants to know where i want it, how many i want, how hard, i mumble replies until he is satisfied with the answers and im getting more exited, expectant, i just dont care how many, or where, i just want it now..please Sir?
goddamn bloody sadists.