Wednesday 27 February 2013

Would rather stick pins in my eyes

I have to do this talk for work in front of a room full of adults at a seminar next Monday, they have come up before and normally the head of Senco does them, i have been asked before if i would but have managed to avoid it, now im being told i have to as the head has prior comittments....and im bloody terrified.

Put me in a room full of children im fine, competent, confident and i love it, a room full of adults and im the opposite, my colleagues have said i will be fine, im good at what i do so it shouldnt be a problem.....but there not getting it!

I am good at my job, dont like the paperwork aspect (who does?) but i genuinely enjoy working with children..thats why i went down this career route...not to stand and talk in front of adults about it..not a whole room full, no exageration but its making me a nervous wreck thinking about it.

I define as having an introvert personality, im not a lover of parties, huge gatherings, i have a small circle of friends and im happy to be in my own company, just give me a good book and i could escape for days without feeling the need for human contact...of course thats not realistic but if it was i would be content.

Yeah perhaps confidence, or lack of is a part of it, im not confident in social settings, i can get by when i need to but im more at ease with people i know and that know me.  Im actually a full on chatterbox and will natter away with those i know and are used to me and on here 'blogland' i can natter, but if this was a 'munch' and in person i would be quiet sitting on the sidelines just content to listen.

The bossman is slightly the opposite, he would not be comfortable in a room full of children but talking to a crowd of adults is no problem but then part of what he does is getting paid to do talks, he has done radio and television so his confidence in that arena is far superior to mine but then thats experience as well.

So im sitting here today trying to write this damn talk but at the same time thinking of how to get out of it....even thinking of pulling a 'sickie' and i know thats really bad but the thought of public humiliation (which is so not my thing lol) is making me feel sick.

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  1. tori,

    When I spoke in front of groups, I would focus my eyes on a good friend when I became nervous.

    Good luck with your preparations.

    Hug,
    joey

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    1. thanks joey

      Thats not a bad idea, writing it is the easy part, its the nerves that are getting to me.

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  2. Oof, I feel the same about public speaking. Maybe imagine they are all children?

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    1. I like that suggestion besides it shouldnt be too difficult, i know some of them and their behavior is much like that of a child lol

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  3. Oh...I'm sorry.
    Don't go sticking pins in your eyes though--you'd probably have to end up doing it anyways, and that would look just terrible!

    Seriously though, good luck. You'll be great.
    I like ksst's idea!

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    1. lol yeah and i wouldnt want to ruin my eyesight its not that good as it is!

      thanks im really dreading it though, still thinking of ways to not have to do it.

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  4. It is so hard to speak to adults!
    I had to present something to "expert" adults once..and when I imagined them as perhaps naked adults.. it helped me somewhat.

    Good luck. They won't throw rocks..adults hardly ever do!~~!

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    1. lmao i think that would have me in fits of giggles. although i guess that a better option than peeing my panties!

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  5. thats not something i look forward to either...have done it in the past and its not easy...smiles...just remember to breathe and not rush it...smiles...you will do fine, have confidence in yourself.

    good luck
    blossom x

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    1. I wish i could have more confidence blossom i really do but i just dont not in talking to a room full of adults.

      thanks

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  6. I hate talking in front of anyone really. Always have, probably always will. Hope it works out for you!

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    1. Thanks Julia, im so bloody worked up about it, i need a huge injection of confidence, im not great at talking in front of people.

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  7. i dont envy you one bit...so good luck ...has bossman got some any good ideas or tips he can impart to help you, get some rescue remedy, write out what you need to say on some cards...and perhaps practice? Good luck tori....wish you all the best with the talk

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    1. Thanks well as my latest post demonstrates it didnt go to plan but im feeling a bit better about it now...copius amounts of wine have helped lol

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