Because i like it should be enough.
It should be enough. Its not. Its easier to say "i have no choice" or i reason that he is the boss and if he wants to do these 'nasty' things to me, im doing it to please him..these are valid reasons.
There are things i dont like and would rather not have to do, but yet if he were to say we will no longer do them..i would miss them....because
I like having to submit to things i dont like doing.
Or maybe im not being honest with myself and i do actually like it but because its so 'wrong' to like these things i have convinced myself that i dont, on discussing this with the bossman his stance is that he would not do anything that i genuinely detested and gained no pleasure from at all, and i do not agree...am i in denial?
See he likes hurting me, he especially likes it when im struggling and im not wanting it...so im not liking it, i truely dont at times...but his answer "so why are you dripping wet then"....well duh coz im a masochist, pain arouses me, i think im just not in control of my masochism...my pussy betrays me when every other part of my body is screaming no.
But its more humiliation and being treated in a degrading manner that i struggle with, somethings i dont mind admitting to, that i like them but then hmm i think its that im concious that some of these 'things' im embarrassed about because i like them...i dont know..so its easier to say he makes me and i have no choice.