My last post didnt really make a lot of sense, it was a bit vague. It was brought about by a discussion with a friend and a passing comment she made to me "I think it would be more easier and fun being a slave" in response to a little moan i was having about the bossman. So it brought about the discussion of the ideas of what a slave is.
6 years ago
I had this idea in my mind of what being a consensual slave in a tpe dynamic was, this was perpetuated with the ideas of having no limits, and an abundance of s/m followed with great sex when and however he wanted. I liked the idea of being used soley for his pleasure, to be his slut, whore..to be whatever he wanted, to be controlled/dominated in every way, and being a slave..how cool is that! the idea turned me on, yes the idea of it all was very appealing...it would be fun.
Im laughing at my ideas, some might understand why im laughing. The thing is its taken me years to start really grasping the concept and the reality of consensual slavery and i still have a long way to go and much more to learn about myself, what i do know as a certainty is its less about the physical aspects and more about the mindset and its establishing the mindset that takes time..it does not happen overnight and it takes full time commitment from both.
I started blogging in 2007 when i agreed to the process of enslavement, after 2 years i took a break and started blogging again the beginning of this year, there were reasons for that nothing major the bossman and i were fine but in that break there was a huge transitional period. Perhaps i should have documented it, i have posts i wrote but never posted, it was difficult, a lot of resistence, denial, it just wasnt and isnt as easy as i expected it to be..it felt like the proverbial bubble being popped and everything i belived it to be like when i first started blogging was a facade...an illusion....now i know it was just naivety.
Consensual slavery and/or tpe dynamics are not better or more than being submissive its simply another spoke in the umbrella that is ttwd, i do think though the 'idea' of slavery is whats most appealing but when the actual reality of it hits its not so much and thats when it starts to get difficult and challenging and to a certain extent not fun as the realisation sinks in.