Wednesday, 27 May 2015
Exposed to one another
I have often felt it a weakness that i am dependent on him, where i feel so very vulnerable, that i need his approval, i need his attention, i need his control, i simply need him.
It goes against what i had fought so hard to not allow to happen, that no way could i let someone get so close that my emotions would be so easily exposed, because if you let someone tear down the walls, you leave yourself open, vulnerable and at the risk of being hurt.
But surrendering to him is not a weakness, and nor is it solely about me, i belong to him, but he also belongs to me, he is as emotionally invested in us just as much as i am, its often easy to forget that, i need him and he needs me.
In this we are equals, although the power exchange implies otherwise, and certainly there is inequality in our relationship, its taken both of us to knock down each others walls, to expose ourselves to one another, to know things about one another that have never been shared with others, and by doing so we are stronger together.