First of all i want to say thank you for the support i do appreciate it, i was, i thought doing ok, but yesterday the worry got to me, i was thinking the worst, and i was scared, hardly slept.
I was at the doctors for 8am this morning, they were brilliant, they had arranged for a specialist consultant to come in and he asked me lots of questions, took my medical files away, he came back to me with some results.
I have an over active thyroid, but also, my body has been rejecting the insulin i have been taking during the day, im allergic to it, its unusual for this to happen.....thats me..unusual :) The combination of both of these explains a lot, the weight loss, the excessive tiredness, the bouts of depression i had been having and the mood swings....but mostly why i have not ever been able to get my blood sugar levels under control.
So, he basically said im unlucky, but the good news is both are treatable and manageable, i feel this huge sense of relief just having an answer, i dont want to run down my doctor or my diabetic nurse because they have been great, but the consultant was clearly annoyed that this wasnt picked up on sooner (its nearly 3 years since i was diagnosed diabetic!), and yes i do feel a little bit that way myself, as it has been dragging on for months that i have been complaining that something wasnt right, i wasnt feeling right...since before Christmas, hence why i had that break back then...health wise i was a mess.
But, anyway, insulin has been changed, im going on a medication to help the over active thyroid, and the consultant says that all going well i should start to feel a lot better within a week, especially in regards to the insulin and will slowly gain some weight once my body adjusts to the changes of meds.
In the grand scheme of things, i have to be positive, it was not what i was expecting, i was thinking the worst, i might be unlucky as the consultant said, but it could have been worse, at least i can manage and treat this, so as far as im concerned..im lucky.
So now im sat here with all these leaflets, i have been bombarded with all this information and im trying to process it all.....whilst eating a large slab of chocolate cake.....doctor said i could !