Or alternatively titled "how tori over complicates things"
*blogger still playing me up, blog list is not updating, and i have lost posts, i think i must have done something, a lot of posts have reverted to drafts* umm ok i know what i have done....all back to normal...can i put it down to having a blonde moment :)
He set me a challenge.
He wouldnt tell me exactly what it would be, but if i accepted and completed it then i would be rewarded with lots of orgasms...and there a rarity around here at the moment...however if i accepted and failed there would be consequences.
I declined, i didnt want to, but it bothered me, me being the over thinker that i am, had to weigh the options up...and the more i thought about it, the more i was inclined to think i would fail the challenge...no he still wouldnt say what the challenge was even after i declined it!
My immediate thought was that i didnt want to be punished for failing whatever the challenge might be, actually i think that would be unfair to be punished if i did, but i wasnt about to start going down the route of the "your being unfair" argument....its pointless.
Which then led to the...yes..the over thinking.
Since that last punishment, i have been doing well, my behaviour has been good, things have been going well, i want it to continue this way, and therefore i am not prepared to take a risk that might result in 'consequences' which is good but yet it also seems very restricting, in a way i cant seem to articulate well enough to make sense...so i wont try to.
I must say this whole being good is quite over-rated, or it feels that way sometimes, it reminds me of the quote
"When I'm good, I'm very good, but when I'm bad I'm better"