Wednesday 10 October 2012

Learning lessons the hard way

I knew he was tired it had been a long day and mentally exhausting, and i should have been more considerate but i wasnt and im not proud of that, i was horny and wanting pain, so i asked nicely if he would hurt me, i didnt get much of a response a grunt would be more accurate, i should have given up at that point but nope not me i was on a mission..so resort to begging not getting anywhere, so by the time we retired to bed for the evening i had pretty much given up until "on your back and open your legs"

He grabbed the hairbrush off the bedside table and whack on my pussy, oh bugger not my favourite thing so i go to grab a pillow to muffle my screams but he told me no, that i was to lie there still and quiet, a few more and i close my legs instinctively he isnt being light handed.   Now he is not amused, the playful look in his eyes gone, now cold and harsh "if you cannot obey, you will suffer more" im really not good at keeping still and i tried but a couple more and i shut my legs again...this is responded with the brush coming down hard on my thigh, so i turn over to escape and he rains down more on my ass until i cover myself with the duvet.

I know he is not pleased with me and when he lies down onto the bed i go to kiss him but he pushed me away, that hurts more than any physical pain, so i lie there next to him rejected and im sorry, i pestered him to hurt me and i got what i asked for yet couldnt obey, he breaks the silence by telling me to go kneel in the bathroom.  As im knelt there im sure he is going to piss on me, which mostly i love but in these circumstances not so much, the waiting isnt nice and when he does appear i crawl to his feet telling him im sorry.

He kneels down in front of me, which throws me i was pretty damn sure of what he was going to do and now im unsure "kneel up and open your legs wide" and i obey instantly although im scared because i dont know where his mind is going and then i see the needles in his hand.

There a larger gauge then im used to and im getting the lesson now, im going to have to keep still because i know where the needles are going and down there is not somewhere i want them hitting the wrong target if i move suddenly, dont suceed on the being quiet part and scream as the needle is pushed through.

After he stands and uses my mouth for his pleasure, no release for me, but its done and i have learnt my lesson.




17 comments:

  1. Does he no the difference between concent and abuse.

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    1. yep and he also knows how to spell!

      but i have wrote a post inspired by your comment.

      x

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  2. tori,

    I kept on thinking: OUCH, OUCH, OUCH.

    Be careful what you wish for?

    Hug,
    joey

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    1. yeah i kept sayin OUCH OUCH OUCH lol

      i should know better but i do have a habit of wishing for things and then wish i hadnt.

      x

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  3. Hunh. Intense, but yes, I was thinking what joey said. I get myself in those types of scrapes all the time. Which is the rub - why do we ask for it? :)

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    1. hi kitty

      oh if i knew the answer to that all my problems would be resolved lol

      so let me know if you figure it out.

      x

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  4. Wow! I love to read your blog. Whenever I start to think I am a true masochist and Wolf a true sadist, I read here and feel like we are just playing like kids.

    love, squirrel

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    1. hi ya squirrel

      I think if someone had said to me 5 years ago that i would be doing the things i do now i would have thought them bonkers, needles were a hard limit for me.

      Even now i have watched women (and men) during s/m and it has scared me to see what they have done to them although it does turn me on seeing it lol

      I still have moments of doubting my masochism and thats the truth, we all have to start somewhere and im still learning, i didnt get to here overnight.

      xx

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  5. You just never know what will happen when you ask for it! I ask sometimes.. and the result is all over the place. sometimes exactly what I asked for.. and just as often.. just exactly what HE wants.

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    1. hi nbs

      Yes generally its exactly as he wants it and if i enjoy it too then its a bonus lol

      x

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  6. Yep, too often I have kept pushing when I know I am going way too far. I have a hard time staying still as well and once I do we start from scratch. Needles can be your best friend or your worst nightmare but always something I crave when it's hasn't happened for a while.

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    1. You would think we should know better by now wouldnt you? lol

      I love needles, in my top 3 favourite things s/m wise.

      xx

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  7. I think I may have to go back to my little corner and muse about getting what I want...

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    1. lol yes its not all its cracked up to be sometimes.

      x

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  8. Ah, the hazards that make it real :)

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    1. I think we need the hazards to exist, like the wolf in the forest or the drop on either side of the bridge.

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