Tuesday 16 June 2015

Changes

I made an appointment to see my diabetic specialist, along with my own doctor, i have been putting it off for months because i just didnt know where to start with what i wanted to discuss.

Since being diagnosed with diabetes i have had to face up to the fact that it has changed me, it has impacted certain aspects of our relationship, most especially in regards to s/m, even now im getting the right insulin and its more better controlled than it has been, it does require strict control.

Just for those that have no knowledge of type one diabetes...

Im insulin dependent, i inject 4 times a day, sometimes more if needed, i have to eat regularly, no skipping meals, i have to be careful about what i eat, some fruits contain too much natural sugar, i can have sweet stuff but very little.

My blood sugar levels can drop drastically due to an increase in physical activity, which can result in making me irritable, anxious and cause erratic behaviour, symptoms can vary from my skin being cold and clammy, blurred vision, dizziness, shaking, headaches and more.

It means i need a quick fix of sugar, i usually have glucose tablets on hand, then wait 15 minutes and test blood again, no improvement, repeat, still no improvement..hospital.

And then there is high blood sugar levels, which can be caused by not eating well, emotional stress, feeling unwell.  This means i need more insulin, which i always have on hand, if it gets really high its hospital.

So, i spoke to the doctors about how i engage in s/m and if there are any precautions we. or i should be taking, they both were really good, they both have not come across this situation before, so it was quite funny witnessing their reactions.

Diabetic doctor straightaway was "no bruising, no having limbs restricted via bondage, no open cuts no damage to feet at all" (yeah foot problems are a big issue with diabetics) and a lecture on the importance of circulation.

yeah...we have a problem doctor!

feet, i will concede on, i have no problem with missing out on bastinado, but no bruising, no bondage and no open cuts, that is not happening, im not giving up those, just have to exercise more caution.

That pretty much rules out many of the things we enjoy!

The other issues for diabetics, one of which i didnt know and im glad i do now is, it effects my electrolyte levels, which she did explain in great detail..but basically electrical play is very dangerous and can have serious consequences for a type one diabetic, i dont mind admitting she scared the shit out of me when she explained why!  so thats a no-no....im mourning that loss!  apart from tens units that is acceptable..have to make do with that.

Also i bruise easier, then there is either (dependent on blood sugar level) less feeling of sensation during impact play or more, which explains why sometimes i really have not been able to handle things that before i have had no problems with.

So, yeah it means adjusting, mostly just keeping a check on it more closely, a lot of it is common sense, things that really i should no better..

before play check blood, check it during play (oh yay spontaneity out the fucking window), lots of water on hand, stop play if i get pins and needles, numbness anywhere, dizziness, shaking..the shaking is a problem..because i tend to shake anyway even long before i had the diabetes..from fear, nerves....so not sure how to work around that.

I do feel a lot better that my doctors know, i think its for the best, so worst case scenario and i have to see them for concerns related to s/m..excessive bruising etc they are aware...and if ever i need to be hospitalised.








24 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear about your diabetes. It is a wicked disease. But great to hear you are on top of it and are able to talk to your doctor about lifestyles and the dos and don't. And I hope you can still find ways to play that won't be harmful to you. Good luck and keep us updated on how you are doing.

    FD

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    1. Thanks FD

      Im much more in control of it than i have been, so im feeling more positive. i was dreading discussing the situation with the doctors but i have to say they were amazing.

      thanks

      x

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  2. Great to get some clear guidelines. I get the whole loss of spontaneity. Im sure your Master will find a way around it.

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    1. I should have gone a lot sooner, but i just kept putting it off, but im glad i did, to get more information, it was a new situation for them lol

      Yeah he will, it will be adjustment though.

      x

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  3. Sorry the diabetes is impacting you in such a way, but way to go for speaking to the doctors, that took some nerve!
    Is the mental side of M/s likely to be ramped up - mindfucks, service, etc? Does that help fill the void of other things you can't do?

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    1. oh DF i was so dreading it, i mumbled a lot lol

      Yes, there is much more that we can do that we enjoy, at the end of the day my health is more important that taking risks, so im trying to be positive and think of possible new avenues to explore!

      x

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  4. Aww Tori, this sucks. Good for you for disclosing to your doctors. You are taking control of this.
    This is all new and I'm sure at the moment it feels as if this list to what you can't do is endless--but you will find ways to adapt. I'm wondering the same as DF--what about the mental side, including humiliation play?

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    1. thanks Bleuame,

      Im really trying to focus on the positives, that now we are fully aware of the increase in risks (i should have gone doctors a long time ago!) we can adapt accordingly.

      Humiliation..oh yes, definitely that is something im keen to explore more of..so im looking it as opening new doors to things we havent explored as of yet.

      x

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  5. wow, that does seem like a lot of restrictions on play :(

    at least they didn't rule out piss play?! (((hugs)))

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    1. yes it is, and just so many things we have to be more aware of, honestly im struggling with how its going to change things, but im focusing on exploring new avenues.

      lol i didnt even bring up piss play!

      thank you

      x

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  6. All more reason to take extra good care of yourself!

    I'm with the others...he is sadistic (and caring) enough to find other ways ;)

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    1. Yes, i really have to take more control of it, im better than i have been.

      Oh....there are always other ways lol

      x

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  7. So glad you have spoken openly with your doctor. That will help your Master take more pre-cautions, etc.

    My general knows, yet doesn't know. Ha! I'm going to have to tell though. I fear what he'll advise. (Not due to diabetic but other problems).

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    1. Im glad i did, should have done it months ago, Master has been great, but then i didnt expect any different, my health is more important than any kink.

      I really do suggest seeking advice especially in regards to medical problems..she says after putting it off longer than i should have lol

      x

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  8. sorry to hear about all the restrictions you have now tori, but better safe than sorry and I too would have loved to have seen their reactions when you asked them about s/m ...laughs....but you do need to take care of yourself...thanks for sharing some things in your post I didn't realise so am sure it will help others who read it...smiles

    hugs

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    1. thanks blossom

      Yes it is better to be safe than sorry, and we will just have to be more vigilant, and careful, something are off the table permenantly which is upsetting me but well just have to accept it.

      oh their expressions in moments was funny lol

      x

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  9. Allthough medical play restrictions can be difficult to deal with. It is good to involve the doctors and adress the risks. At least you know what risks you take and what signals to watch for.

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    1. Yes, although some of it is bothering me, its better to be fully aware of the risks, its going to mean change, adjustments but im trying to focus on the positives

      x

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  10. Hi Tori, I'm sorry that you are going to have to restrict some aspects of physical play. Good on you for taking control. I'm so glad you were able to talk to your doctor's. The most important thing is keeping you safe.

    It will be an adjustment but I'm sure you and your Master will find a way to make it work. I too am with DF on maybe increasing the non - physical aspects of your dynamic.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. hi ya Roz

      Im sorry to, a little upset but it answered a lot of questions and concerns we had, i should have gone a lot sooner than i did, but well its done and the doctors were brilliant.

      x

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  11. Aww, crappy.
    At least they didn't totally freak out on you! Talking to doctors about these kinds of things is super hard (okay, so I've never actually done it, but the thought of it makes me cringe), so I think that was brave of you. And very wise.
    I'm sure you guys will figure a way to work with it all! Sadists are far too inventive to let physical limitations spoil their fun...

    Hugs

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    1. yeah crappy about sums it up lol

      It was hard, i was dreading it, hence why i had put it off for so long which was stupid really considering its an important issue.

      Yeah we have talked about it, he is more cautious than i am, i just dont like change and missing certain things that i really enjoy but at the end of the day my health is more important than kink.

      oh he will still get his kicks one way or the other lol

      x

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  12. I think it was great you talked to your doctors. I am sorry you are having to go through these difficult adjustments. I don't have diabetes, but chronic pain due to degenerative disc disorder and also pinched nerves in my back and I know how hard it is to deal with life changing illness.

    Also just to throw this out there for another form of support...there is a group on FetLife...https://fetlife.com/groups/5379

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  13. I didnt want to but it was a case of having to, im just so pleased that they really handled it well, as it was a new situation for them.

    It is hard, i hope yours is manageable in some form, i think what is perhaps difficult is adjusting that one is stuck with a particular condition and in some cases it can only get worse.

    Thank you for the link, i shall go join.

    x

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