*from the unpublished archives, 2008, its funny because reading this now its not something that would bother me, but it clearly did back then...omg i was such a drama queen lol*
Topaz asked me if you show any compassion when your hurting me, when its clear im in pain that im struggling with it and want it to end, my reply without thinking about it was no, you dont, you dont have any compassion at all, the more im not enjoying it the more you like it...thats an accurate observation dont you think?
But you have an answer for that...."your cunt is always soaking wet, the more nastier the pain, the more responsive you become, that is all i need to know!"
That is besides the point.
The caning was brutal, and ok i wont deny that i loved it, once i got into sync and could ride the pain, and then when i was starting to get really spacey, you undid the wrist cuffs, so i could move a bit more freely, ankle cuffs still attached, then you put clover clamps on my nipples, with the chain running underneath the table and connected, and continued with the caning.
You ruined my fun, as i soon realised that as i instinctively rose up from each stroke it would pull on the chain, and it was difficult processing the different sensations, i couldnt relax into the caning as i was before, im guessing that was your intention?
I tried to keep still, but i was struggling, i damn well told you it was hurting a lot, that i didnt like it, and you had the audacity to say "i know" and laugh! i dont feel at all bad at swearing at you, not that you took any notice.
Then, because obviously you didnt feel that i was tormented enough, you rubbed this cream on my ass and up my ass!! and it started to burn, and i started to struggle even more, and im not sure what i was more stressed about my nipples dropping off, which might have been a welcome relief, or my ass setting on fire..
Your dick must be like the rest of you, unfeeling because you fucked my ass, with no condom and the cream didnt effect you!!! whereas i was squirming and screaming like a wild thing....and then you made me lick you clean, and i hate that, you know, when its been there!! oh why the hell not, the rest of me is burning my tongue might as well be as well....but it was ok, one small mercy i suppose.
Nope, not nice.