I thought i was long past the jaw dropping moments of "you want to do what!!!!!"....clearly not, as was evident when he brought up what he intended to do to me...after adequate preparation of the physical nature....i do believe i was rendered speechless for a bit...only a bit mind!
Its been a long while since he has introduced something new, he has exposed me over the years to such a wide variety of s/m that i figured what he hasnt is what i have assumed he had no interest in...clearly i was wrong on that count.
He first brought it up about 5/6 weeks ago (planted the seed) well it aint growing that seed....im not finding it anymore appealing now than i did 5/6 weeks ago, but i let it sink it, i scoured the internet for information, we spoke about it...but im not thrilled about it....i dont get why he wants to do it..thats bugging me....he has never mentioned it before!
I told him how i felt, he listened, i questioned him as to why he wants to do it because i really cant see the appeal, and i explained that i wasnt comfortable with the idea at all, and although he is taking on board what im saying...im not sure what way his final decision may swing.
So i said to him in a last ditch attempt (and this had been an on/off discussion for weeks) that i didnt think this was something i wanted to do....and the bastard played the 'Master' card...
"you dont have a choice".
tori,
ReplyDeleteOh shit.
Big Hug,
joey
yeah that was one of my reactions!
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You're killing me! What is it??
ReplyDelete:-)
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im sorry, i will get to it honestly
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Oh dear - that card has a finality about it! Is it the case that the more you resist what he wants you to do, the more he likes the idea of it?
ReplyDeletewould love to know what made your jaw drop :)
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Thats a good point, i know he does for sure love it when i dont like something so yes i think that my reluctance holds an appeal for him.
DeleteI shall say what it is i promise
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My stomach just did that bottoming out, flip flopping thing as I read those words. Your Master does seem to be intent on following through with this one. Unless it is something that you are morally opposed to (which I am betting is not the case), then try to remember back to the beginning of your relationship. If I'm not mistaken, didn't you write a post recently about all the things that started out on your limits list that are now some of your favorite activities. Here's hoping to a new fave!
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Im not morally opposed to it your correct, i just simply dont find it appealing.
DeleteI did write that post didnt i lol
It could well become a fav your right, i have never really given this much thought at all...so it came out of the blue!
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can't wait to find out what it is!
ReplyDeleteyou wont have to wait long lol
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way to bring out the nosy in me...I'm too busy being curious to feel the concern i think i should have.
ReplyDeletelol cheers lil
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I'm dying of curiosity!
ReplyDeletei shall reveal all soon
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"You dont have a choice" sounds pretty final to me....you poor thing Tori. I do hope that either in the end its something you can learn to adjust to - or your Master can adjust whatever it is so suit both your needs. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteBTW - im as curious as everyone - what is it? (we dont like cliff hangers lol)
im sorry i just needed to get my thoughts down about it before hearing other thoughts.
DeleteIt is final, which in one way is comforting because i have to start accepting it rather than try to worm my way out of it!
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Along with everyone else I can't wait to hear what it is! ava x
ReplyDeleteI fear im building it up to seem like its something big and really its not lol
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ooh. I'm very curious....
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and curiosity killed the cat lol..im going to tell all..soon
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You know, when we have to guess ourselves, we are going to make it so much worse. Or maybe not, since you are well advanced from me.
ReplyDeleteHmmmm... I am still going to have guess some more. (Evil laugh.)
lmao thats a good point..its not really bad its just umm ewww
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I guess you have 2 options.
ReplyDeleteYou can either do it and like it...
Or
You can do it and not like it.
Good luck!!!
lol thats simply sums it up Sarah..yes
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