I know i was vague in the last post but i have my reasons, firstly i wanted to get my own thoughts down about how i felt about it without saying what *it* is, it was more about my reaction to it, secondly i wasnt going to say what it is until we have actually done it so then i could give a more informed personal opinion (yes im going to say what it is..if you have no patience..scroll down..im getting to the point..at some point lol)
But im also embarrassed about it, which in itself im not liking because well i will happily admit about other kinks we enjoy but this one im just not getting my head around.
Its anal fisting! ewwwww
Ok so its not that bad is it? i think im trying to convince myself its not that bad.
We have done vaginal fisting and thats...well im not really sure how that is cos when he has done it im so deep in subspace i really couldnt care less whats shoved up there lol (lets not put that to the test Sir!)
but the ass!!!!
and nope havent done it yet...not ready....
and if i have my way i wont be ready for oh at least another few years!
i love anal sex, prefer it more than 'normal' sex, and i have had enemas (eww, dont like them!) but this....a fist up my ass....and the worst of it is..i hate that he knows me so well and i dont and wont confirm he is right when he says
"but you know, the more humiliating, the more degrading it is, when it pushes you, you love it,"