Tuesday, 16 July 2013

Its not that bad...if i keep saying it..it must be true...right?

I know i was vague in the last post but i have my reasons, firstly i wanted to get my own thoughts down about how i felt about it without saying what *it* is, it was more about my reaction to it, secondly i wasnt going to say what it is until we have actually done it so then i could give a more informed personal opinion (yes im going to say what it is..if you have no patience..scroll down..im getting to the point..at some point lol)

But im also embarrassed about it, which in itself im not liking because well i will happily admit about other kinks we enjoy but this one im just not getting my head around.

Its anal fisting!   ewwwww

Ok so its not that bad is it?  i think im trying to convince myself its not that bad.

We have done vaginal fisting and thats...well im not really sure how that is cos when he has done it im so deep in subspace i really couldnt care less whats shoved up there lol (lets not put that to the test Sir!)

but the ass!!!!

Why!

ewww!

and nope havent done it yet...not ready....

and if i have my way i wont be ready for oh at least another few years!

i love anal sex, prefer it more than 'normal' sex, and i have had enemas (eww, dont like them!) but this....a fist up my ass....and the worst of it is..i hate that he knows me so well and i dont and wont confirm he is right when he says

"but you know, the more humiliating, the more degrading it is, when it pushes you, you love it,"
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  1. DelFonte16 July 2013 at 09:58

    Ok - eek! My first thought - how big are his hands? Isn't being relaxed a key factor, which given your reticence.... find that subspace fast!
    Now the butt plug has a wider purpose doesn't it? (sorry terrible pun!)
    hugs
    DF

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 10:56

      yeah eek is a bit more milder than my initial response lol

      Relaxed yes is definitley the way to go....

      oh god!!!

      x

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  2. Anonymous16 July 2013 at 10:28

    Anal anything was never a favorite of mine until more recently. We have never tried anal fisting, but I'm sure your Master will take amazing care of you. Hope you get your head wrapped around it more quickly now that you know he's going to push this 'request'

    hugs
    p

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 10:57

      Im slowly trying to get my head around it but its taking its time, its way off yet i think..im no where near adjusted to the idea let alone doing it.

      x

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  3. Anonymous16 July 2013 at 11:38

    tori,

    Thank you for sharing. I know it is very difficult to share some of the kinky things we do on our blog.

    Anal fisting. Damn. Ouch. It has got to hurt a lot even if he has small hands.

    Perhaps it is just a big mind fuck.

    Big, Big Hug,
    joey

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 10:58

      ooo joey dont give me hope lol

      as much as i would like to think it could be a mind fuck..realistically i doubt it is..he seems very intent on this happening.

      x

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  4. Fondles16 July 2013 at 12:04

    *speechless*

    I really don't even know what to say now. i'm thinking OUCH and wow and all sorts of exclamatory sounds.

    thanks for sharing.. i suppose it's quite safe for me to say i don't think i'm ever going to go there - BIKSS has huge hands!

    i'm not sure i think of it in a psychological context- i don't think it's degrading or anything, but just physiologically it'll be a huge challenge. sorry bout the pun!

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 11:17

      yeah see now you can see how i was rendered speechless lol

      its a challenge for sure...for me i see it as having degrading aspects...perhaps more on the humiliating side though than degrading.

      what i do know is im not looking forward to it!

      x

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  5. SirQsmlb16 July 2013 at 12:05

    Our minds are so fascinating, you know? There are some of our kinks that we are perfectly fine sharing and owning. There are some that just still seem taboo, some that we aren't proud of or embarrassed of. Though no matter what the kink is, it seems like one of the universal turn-ons is having our limits pushed in a safe, trusting, consensual sort of way. Oh, our brains are fascinating sexual organs, aren't they?

    OK, so are you graduating up on plugs to prepare? Can't wait to hear about your experience!!

    hugs,
    fiona

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 11:19

      yes fiona! i love the workings of our mind...what makes us like we are?, why do we like the things we do? etc

      i like the psychology of D/s in a way more than the physical aspects.

      yep working on plugs at the moment.

      lmao well i can wait!

      x

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  6. Kitty the Submissive Wife16 July 2013 at 14:50

    Ha! I had guessed anal something (not this), but still I am taking credit for being in the right vicinity.

    I have looked at fisting before - I can't really wrap my head around that one either.

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 11:20

      yay you can have the gold star lol

      nope thats my problem i cant wrap my head around it either...vaginal fisting..gosh yes such an intense erotic experience!

      x

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  7. Unknown16 July 2013 at 19:11

    Wow. Just wow...

    Thank you for sharing.
    You're very brave.

    -aim

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 11:21

      wow..as in oh my fucking god! lol

      brave..nope..im not choosing to do this...i would opt out if i could lol

      x

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  8. ancilla_ksst16 July 2013 at 20:36

    That would take a lot of bravery. I'd be scared of a fist in my butt. It barely, just barely, with a lot of pain, holds a dick. But a fist? I'd want it to be a little pixie fist, not a big man fist. Brave lady! Nothing to be embarrassed about though, imo.

    I am kinda interested in vaginal fisting, though.

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 11:22

      I know what you mean about not being embarrassed, the logical part of me knows i shouldnt but still its bugging me that i am.

      Totally recommend vaginal fisting...its just wow! lol

      x

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  9. Anonymous17 July 2013 at 01:17

    ((hugs))

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  10. Sarah17 July 2013 at 04:23

    Well.....
    You can either do it and not like it
    Or
    You can do it and scream like hell!

    You might need a lot of lube. Should we be buying stock in lube???

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 11:23

      lmao this cracked me up...gosh lube i want tubes and tubes full!

      x

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  11. geekie kittie17 July 2013 at 05:12

    O.O

    I have had a tongue & a finger but nothing else in a very VERY long time!!

    Good Luck! ;)

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    1. tori17 July 2013 at 11:24

      thanks

      i like the finger..i like his cock...im tolerant of butt plugs..but yep oooo im happy with just those!

      x

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  12. Storm17 July 2013 at 17:03

    I can totally understand your trepidation!

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    1. tori18 July 2013 at 10:25

      yep exactly! im way off ready yet..but i know its going to happen.

      x

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  13. kiwigirliegirl18 July 2013 at 02:29

    way beyond my tolerance. Can you set it as a hard limit for you? Surely you have a choice?
    You are very brave - good luck - whatever the outcome.
    hugs kiwi xx

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    1. tori18 July 2013 at 10:27

      hi kiwi

      i think im going to blog about this....because my reply could well be a blog post.

      simply put he holds the limits not myself..and no i dont have a choice...i trust him to make choices for me.

      x

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