Ok so i know what im like, i dwell on things, and i know my friend certainly didnt intend for her comment (last post) to cause this much overthinking but its eating away at me.....and last night i went to bed thinking about it..hence why i blogged about it...and thats probably made it worse coz i was still obsessing about it...hence the rambling here...damn this blog has its uses..even if its not making sense..it helps to get it out..i think!
It tapped into my insecurities, and paranoia, had to talk it out, to straighten things in my head, to get reasurrance, to be rational.
So..... no one can predict the future, no one enters a relationship (i imagine) thinking the worst, you dont enter a relationship wandering if and when it will end.....because i imagine to do so would make one and/or both miserable.
You cant worry about 'what ifs', i trust the Bossman he has never given me any reason not to.
Im not 'knocking' my friend in any way, i get that she has been through a rough time and im sure it has left her mistrusting and perhaps a little bitter...but you cant tar every relationship with the same brush..gosh she would probably be horrified if she knew its caused me this much angst.