I have read a few posts recently regarding pushing limits, and i know i have blogged about this before.....heck im pretty sure im constantly coming around full circle with this blog.
I started off with the intention of more than likely going over whats already been said...and then....brainwave..i dug out old emails (which i had deleted) but had printed them out as i no longer use the original email address....and ta da i found them (although now i have boxes everywhere!)....now who says im not sentimental lol It brought back wanderful memories re-reading them.
I entered this relationship and this lifestyle with a little, well a few months experience and a large amount of naivety, Master is the opposite, with over 30 years experience and plenty of confidence and he knew/knows what he wants and expects...me i wasnt so sure, i had a limit list , i knew what i didnt want to try but yet also didnt know what i did want.
Anyways ooh cringing but (and i have had to write this as i have got it to scan but i cant get it to go here..ok yes im crap with computers) here is an old email..crikey dated March 15th 2007.
I have thought over what you said, and i dont know for sure, somethings i had to look on the internet about? can we talk about those? so i have gone with what doesnt interest me at all:
Needles........really scared of this...hard limit
Weights.....dont interest me
Being hit on or around face.....just wrong
Toilet control in general and anything to do with that...yuck
Whips....so many im not sure but im thinking not!
Clamps down there.....no way
Breath play...too dangerous
Being cut.....same as needles
Now, i have experienced everything that is on that list and more, and what makes me chuckle is that the 2 things i really was adamant about not doing especially needles i now absolutley love, they are one of my favourite activities.
So i think sometimes letting things flow is the way to go, some times a push is needed, but mostly im more and more sure that placing limits on oneself is just limiting yourself to the possibilities out there, the potential of new experiences.
No im not saying hard limits shouldnt be respected, but had i stuck to my guns...well....lets just say im so glad he pushed, inspired and encouraged (and the odd moments of being forced) me to look beyond my fears and embrace new experiences and i hope he continues to do so.