Monday 9 February 2015

The perfect slave


I am not always obedient, but i try and strive to be

I have limits, albeit they may be his, but i trust him not to push me in places i cannot go, and there are places i cannot go, so therefore i have limits

I am not always pleasing, but as with being obedient, i try and strive to be

I get hurt, upset, angry, i have feelings that are irrational, because i am a person as much as i am a slave

Im opinionated, i know my own mind and i speak it, i have a voice and i will be heard, as long as its in a respectful manner

Im a masochist, i like to be hurt, to be pushed past my comfort zone, but knowing he will not break me down

I love to be humiliated, degraded and treated like im worthless, but i know im worthy and thats what makes it all the more enjoyable

I can tell him anything, all my desires and fantasies and he will not think of less of me, he embraces me for who i am, he wants to know what i think and feel 

I disappoint him at times, i feel gutted when i do, but i know he will forgive me, because i will make things right, i want to and i need to, and i know he will never give up on me.

I guess im not the perfect slave because i am all of these things and more, and im ok with that.


















22 comments:

  1. Sounds like you are a very good slave and I assume he is very pleased with the way you serve him.

    FD

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    1. thanks FD, i try very hard to be, and i like to think he is mostly pleased with me

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  2. Great post Tori, love what you said about being a person as well as a slave. Absolutely! I don't think they truly expect us to be perfect all of the time and I'm not sure if they really want that either.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. thanks Roz

      yeah i think trying to seek perfection is futile, because its simply unachievable

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  3. You may be more perfect than you think. All of us have limits even a dominate has a limit. Everything you said shows you are submissive. Yes you speak your mind but do it with respect that is what a submissive does. By speaking out it lets your dominate see deeper into your soul. You are a wonderful submissive enjoy it.
    archedone

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    1. Thank you very much

      And yes even dominants have limits, something i think which is often overlooked, usually the focus in on the submissive setting the limits.

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  4. Is it part of what makes us tick, what makes us slave or submissive in the first place, that makes us so hard on ourselves sometimes. I don't expect perfection from my kids, or my friends, or even my husband - that's not real and it's harmful. I love your writing and your story because it feels real - wanting to do better but honest about being human, not pretending, being real. thank you.

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    1. I think your right, we tend to be harder on ourselves, but to expect perfection is pointless, because i dont believe it exists.

      Thank you gg

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  5. Wow tori - this is ... absolutely beautiful! I can so relate to so much of what you save. It's...so real and so perfect and so ...beautiful - oh I said that already.

    hugs,
    fiona

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    1. thanks ever so much fiona

      i know im not the most skilled writer in blogland, so thank you

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  6. Love this tori, we all strive to be perfect whatever our dynamic, but perfection is probably an impossible aspiration. You seem to me to be a pretty good slave and it appears that for you both this is a perfect dynamic.

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    1. thanks julie

      agree it is an impossible aspiration, its more realistic i think to focus more on being the best one can be

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  7. love what you have written tori...smiles

    we are perfect to our Owners...smiles

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    1. thanks blossom

      oh im not quite sure he would consider me perfect at the moment....im not in his good books lol

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  8. Simply and beautifully stated :)

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  9. If there was no room for growth then you would be a challenge to him or yourself. It is accepting and knowing these things that make you who you are and worthy of yourself and him.

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    1. yes! growth is important, i think we should all, no matter how experienced one might be, be open to learning more about ourselves and each other.

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  10. Yes, this.

    Its good to see you writing again.
    (thanks so much for the congrats ;D)

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    1. thank you Bleuame

      Its good to be back into the swing of things.

      and your very much welcome

      x

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