It took reading some books and watching a film to make me realise i need help, rescuing, i had no understanding of separating fiction from reality, because im a woman and on top of that a submissive woman, so how would i know!
But i see clearly now, after watching the film, that what im doing, what me and Master are doing is wrong, oops i shouldnt call him that, its offensive, but wait we are not like the books or the film, oh gosh a realisation has sunk in that we are worse than the books....the bastard doesnt even own a helicopter for a start..let alone a luxury apartment.....he has been masquerading as a dominant for all these years..i see this now.
He didnt give me a contract either, omg, i have been manipulated, forced into situations i could have said no to, i didnt get no Apple laptop to do some research on either, i trusted him instead, learnt as we went along..what a fool i am.
Some people have said the film portrays an abusive relationship, and part of me can understand that, but they are wrong, its real, dont they see that? now im off to run down some pedestrians because i have been playing Grand Theft Auto.