Monday 27 January 2014

Those 3 little words

No, not I love you, but "so be it"

Thats what he said this morning after reading yesterdays post.

"so be it"!!!! is that it?

I was not expecting that, that was it.  Ok so im over analysing but i dont like those words they sound, well like the bells of doom chiming my impending doom.....i wanted "lets discuss this" or his usual "we'll see" then i have time to sort of like realise what im asking for, and maybe just maybe have the opportunity to withdraw it (have to have hope!).....but no i get

"so be it"!!!! (hey i like exclamation marks)!

Now yes i do realise that i asked for this and i did deliberate before hitting publish to give it some thought and yes i know the whole 'be careful what you wish for, you just might get it'....but i wasnt expecting "so be it"....yes, yes i know i only have myself to blame.

But (i also like but's) this is a man that deliberates over decisions, thinks things through so he is sure of the decision he makes, i thought i could predict what would happen, and he has thrown me off kilter (what is a kilter anyway!) and well i just sat there stunned, not speaking..."so be it" i dont like that phrase, its new, its sort of ominous.......i shall never moan again, bloody hell bring back "we'll see".

Hmm now its the waiting game, the anticipation of waiting for the "so be it" to happen, when he feels like it.




22 comments:

  1. Ooo I like this! He's a trickster huh? And likes to keep you off kilter (no idea what it means either) ... let the mind fuck begin.

    You don't like "so be it" but I'm betting you are maybe liking this new unknown .. just a little bit. ;)

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    1. you know geekie kittie i hadnt looked it from the aspect of it being a mind fuck, its certainly playing on my mind which i know might seem silly,,,its just 3 words...but well they say so much but yet so little lol

      Yes! i confess im excited, the anticipation is turning me on a lot lol

      x

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    2. sounds like the perfect mind fuckery to me ... give you an answer you least expect ... and you're off!!!

      I hope you don't have too long to anticipate! ;) !

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  2. "So be it" in response to your last post? My nerves would be pinging and zinging!

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    1. Pinging and zinging...i like that, and they are in a good, excited way at the moment..with a little hint of fear as well.

      x

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  3. Oh my Tori, it sounds as though he is keeping on on your toes ... not to mention on edge! Oh the waiting and anticipation! My nerves would certainly be zinging too! Good luck!

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Yep this is definitley keeping me on my toes, the waiting, the anticipation is a huge turn on for me, then the fear will kick in lol

      x

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  4. Should I mention this you did say he'd probably say "we'll see" which kind of ensured that he would not say that?!?

    You also warned that you'd try to verbally fight it. So...you're right on track.

    I hope you get what you both need and that you have a positive experience!!

    Hugs,
    Fiona

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    1. I considered this, but me predicting he would say that wouldnt effect him if he wanted to say that..because thats what he does tend to say and i do mimic it...so honestly thats what i was expecting lol

      Im not fighting it at the moment, its the "so be it" that has thrown me, it will be when the time arises that i will more than likely try to talk my way out of it.

      Im sure i will, i wont see it that way when it happens, it will be later, afterwards that i get my 'buzz' and can reflect on it postively.

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  5. Oh you're in for it now *evil laugh*

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  6. Ok! See what you miss when you're out of the loop for a few days! First off I think it's amazing and brave to be so vulnerable as to ask for what you need. It seems to me that your last post was about meeting both your needs. You want to let him express himself and his needs more and you also crave the pain he can give and the ability to give something to him in return. That is the beauty of D/s.

    That being said...HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND??!!! You told a sadist that you want "a taste" of his worst..Fuck! woman! lol Enjoy ;)

    hugs
    p

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    1. Yes you got it spot on, thankyou. I need to do this for him, and it will be good for me too, to know that i have given that bit more of myself willingly.

      lmao.....i think i may have lost my mind, maybe i can use temporary insanity as a get out lol

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  7. I have to say 'so be it' does sound kind of masterly - like no way out.
    I hope you tell us what 'it' turns out to be :)
    hugs
    DF

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    1. Yes it does have that tone of it making it clear there is no way out...i thought it was kind of Yoda ish lol

      I will when 'it' happens.

      x

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  8. ' this is a man that deliberates over decisions, thinks things through so he is sure of the decision he makes, i thought i could predict what would happen, and he has thrown me off kilter '

    Ah yes. Been THERE... scary place. Of course, it's one of places he most likes taking me... *sigh*

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    1. Well it will certainly teach me not think him so predictable lol

      As scary as these places might be though, i do believe coming out through it does bring out about the rewards..a sense of personal growth, satisfaction etc.

      x

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    2. yes, (re personal growth etc). at least I think so. I dunno. am in several minds about it all at the moment. Have been very deep mentally recently and I think it's scared me - like, in a not good way!

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  9. Well, you said you wanted to let him do more, so it looks like you're going to get it. Have fun!:) I really wish Blogger had emoticons.

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    1. Yes i did, i cannot deny it lol

      Yes i have often thought blogger should allow emoticons....many a time they would come in useful.

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  10. In all fairness, statements like that are what exclamation points are for!

    I hope that any regret is a temporary state, and that anticipation doesn't kill you (a tad dramatic perhaps, but isn't that sense of being on the edge waiting, such a big psychological part of the whole experience?).

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    1. Exactly!!! lol

      Im not feeling any regret as of yet, its just those 3 words that are bugging me..silly i know..but its just not what i expected at all.

      Yes very much so for me, the anticipation is part of the experience, waiting, wanting to know what he will do but also not wanting to know...a huge turn on for me.

      x

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