Wednesday, 22 January 2014

It was time (vanilla...dont want you all getting excited thinking its kinky shit lol)

Today i handed in my notice at work, with the time owing to me, today was my last day.

It was not an easy decision, since before Christmas i have been mulling it over, and i suppose its one of the reasons my blogging has been erratic, i really needed to put a lot of thought into making the right decision, i didnt want to quit and end up regretting it....so its really been pretty much on my mind for the last couple of months.

I had worked there for 12 years and i loved it, i was fortunate that i was in a job that for the majority of the time i looked forward to going into work, i loved working with the children, there was a lot of satisfaction in working with children with learning/behaviour/special needs and seeing them grow.

But the last year or more i have become less and less enthusiastic, spending more time doing paperwork than i was working with the children, getting frustrated with bloody bureaucracy, never no money in the pot for those children that really need it but yet criminals in prison can get educated for free!

I have cried my tears  most of this afternoon, im going to miss the children, some of the staff, and im going to miss working....so i intend to have a few months at home before i start seeking something new...staying home full time is not for me, and its not like i have young children at home.

Im not sure what direction i want to go in, im seriously considering going back to college to do what im really not sure about, something completely different from education i think, i need a new challenge.

Master offered up the suggestion of professional dominatrix!......hmm i could try practising on him...... lmao.





24 comments:

  1. Wow!! Congratulations Tori. I hope you are able to take a few breaths and enjoy some down time while discerning what you want to be when you grow up.

    Hugs,
    Fiona

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    1. Thanks...im going to enjoy it until i do decide what i want....i dont want to grow up lol

      x

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  2. The decision to stay home is a tough one. I've been home for a year now. I just started back to school and I'm not going to lie...I'm scared to death! Failure is NOT an option so I'll likely be busting my ass...yay. Enjoy your time off and relax a little.

    hugs
    p

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    1. Yes i can understand the feelings of being scared...im scared even now because its the first time in a long time that i have time lol....and scary deciding what i want to do.

      Good luck to you, you will do fine im sure.

      Yep a .little relaxing will do me good..thanks.

      x

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  3. Wow Tori, congratulations on taking the plunge and leaving a job you were becoming disheartened with. Enjoy some down time and relax for a while before working out your next step.

    Interesting suggestion from your Master LoL. Hmm, I wonder how that would work ... professional Dom and sub at home?

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. Thanks Roz

      Im most definitley enjoying the down time so far.....until the novelty wears off!

      i laughed at his suggestion, he also came up with professional sub...umm i dont think i would be too good at that either lol

      x

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  4. Well done tori on taking the plunge and doing what is so obviously right for you. I highly recommend a few months off to help work out what you want to do next. Plus hopefully we might get some great tori posts here if you have more time. Especially if you follow Master's ideas.....lol

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    1. I confident i made the right decision, yes i think your right that i need to take the time out to work out where i want to go next...really at the moment im just not sure.

      I think i shall leave Masters ideas....just as that....ideas lol

      x

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  5. Well done for pulling the plug, it takes courage to stop something, even if you know it isn't what you want to do any more.
    I've been at home for over three years now. though I didn't choose it, I've stayed here rather than look for work. It has given me opportunity to write (something I've always wanted to do) and be with my kids. I miss the social side of work. I try to get out and do volunteering to fill that gap.
    If it is what you want to do, you will enjoy it and find new things to do in its place.
    Becoming a switch? that would be interesting to blog about ;-)
    hugs
    DF

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    1. Thanks DF

      It wasnt an easy decision, i had been swaying back and forth with my decision for quite a while, but im confident i have made the right one.

      I stayed at home with both my children until they reached school age, and i dont regret that...just feels odd being at home alone.

      I have thought about volunteering because yes like you said its the social aspect that i think i will miss.

      OOh there is no chance of me becoming a switch lol

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  6. Aw, i wish you all the best for future endeavours. It really takes guts to take the leap as you have done and i've no doubt something fantastic will come of it!

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    1. thankyou very much

      I was so scared but im sure it was the right things to do...it was the right time.

      Now just to decide in what direction i go next.

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  7. gosh, well done for taking the plunge. Hope you enjoy your 'time off' and find lots of exciting new job opportunities...

    I have to say, professional Domme sounds intriguing ;-D

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    1. thanks

      im enjoying it so far....but then its really early days, give it a week or so and im sure i will be tearing my hair out lol

      Pro Domme...interesting yeah but not for me lol

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  8. Congratulations on leaving your frustrating job for something better I hope!

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    1. thanks ancilla

      im just not sure what the something better could be yet lol

      x

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  9. Good luck tori! Enjoy your time away from the rat race. There is just wonderful about being able to work because you want to and not because you have to. It really affords you the opportunity to find something your can be passionate about & truly be able to enjoy.
    Congratulations! :D

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    1. thanks gk

      Yes absoultley, its such a bonus being able to work coz i want to not because i have to and i appreciate that this is possible.

      just what to do next.....ahh i will think about it at some point lol

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  10. Good for you for making a difficult decision that is right for you!!

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    1. thanks Renee

      It was a really difficult decision, but im confident it was the right one.

      x

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  11. Tori - Congrats! It must be, I imagine, a little bittersweet. But how exciting to be able to choose from options and adventures before you. I changed careers a few years back, including a whole new go round at school; it has worked out to have been a great path. Enjoy!

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    1. thanks gg

      Yes i would agree with the bittersweet, i miss many aspects and im sure i will for a while to come.

      I am tempted at giving going back to college another go....but im a little scared as well.

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  12. Tori,
    Ah ha!
    I've been so behind on my blog-reading, that I missed this the first time.

    Good for you!
    I think it's super brave of you to call it quits because you aren't enthusiastic or feeling satisfied with your job. Not an easy thing to do-especially if we really love it.
    I think changing courses/reinventing ourselves is one of the hardest undertakings but can be the most rewarding.
    I wish you much success on finding your "next" and hope you can enjoy the time at home without going completely stir-crazy.

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    1. thanks Bleuame

      So far im really enjoying being at home, but i know eventually i will need to find something, i like to be doing something, keeping the old brain going lol

      x

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