I would make a shit dominant, the Bossman was teasing when he suggested the idea of professional dominatrix, gave us a laugh as he knows what im like, i just dont think i could pull it off..its not me.
Its the thought of having to make decisions for someone else..heck im terrible when i have to make them for myself...its so much easier when he tells me what i need/have to do! im a Hmmm er, i hmm for a loooong time its like when he might say "where would you like to go for dinner?" see my immediate response is "i dont mind, where would you like to go?" by the time i would make a decision and stick to it..it would be time for breakfast.
I have always been this way, long before i met the bossman, although yes i think because of the nature of our relationship i have become more accustomed to having decisions made for me, i know this sounds quite pathetic, but yet in work im or rather should i say was different, with decisions regarding my children im different...when its something important...im focused and although i value his advice and opinions..some decisions he cant and wont make for me.
Its more the silly inconsequential things that i hmm about, so yep its easier being told what to do.
Doesnt mean i necessarily like all the decisons he makes for me, but i know he will make the right ones, with the best intentions.
Then the whole kink thing. i couldnt hurt someone, even if they enjoyed it, i would be saying "are you ok?" "is that too hard?" constantly and as a masochistic submissive that would piss me off if a dominant persistently kept asking me this!
Its the confidence thing as well, and also well i like a bit of arrogance when being dominated, and Master pulls that off really well (sorry Master but well you can be very arrogant, but thats ok i love it), i wouldnt be confident in a dominant role.
Its just not me.
Most definitely happy being at the bottom.
Umm sometimess i do have the urge to whack him back....but i like having skin...skin is good!