Im not very comfortable with crying, or rather him seeing me cry when he is hurting me in bdsm, i will try to if possible shield my face, of course he loves to see my tears, it turns him on more, it inspires and satisfies him.
However i dont cry that often, im mostly a giggler, he can be giving me a severe caning and i will giggle, it seems to start with a lot of "ouches" then the giggles and then quiet once i hit subspace, the only sound being the cane connecting with my bottom.
I think engaging in bdsm or how it is for us is about enjoyment, for sure there are times that i dont so much, but more often than not its fun, and my laughter isnt seen as disrespectful or pushing his buttons...if he didnt want me laughing he could certainly put a stop to it.
Likewise during bdsm is the only time that i can get away with calling him horrible names..i can be quite vocal when we 'play', he isnt fazed by it, even when im telling him how much i hate him, it just spurs him on and i love it.
I enjoy being tied-up, tormented and taunted, i love being vunerable, completely at his mercy, im really not so great at holding positions and on the times he doesnt restrain me im constantly jumping up or/and moving away, and often at these times he will threaten worse if i dont comply..and i grin..im not sure i want worse but i do want to be tied up.
Bondage is a big favourite of mine, i love being suspended by my wrists to just on my tip toes, it gives him access to every part of me, the whip snakes around my skin, the tip biting in always elicits a whimper. I dance at every stroke, whether it be whip, cane or flogger and when i can get past the pain i fly, the welts, cuts, blood, my tears are not unwelcome, they are not to be feared, he covets them all.....and its beautiful...its to be embraced this 'dance' between us.
Emotionally I cry easily, whether happy or sad. I don't cry very often when in pain unless I'm depressed at the same time. I also giggle a little when the spanking reaches that point when I'm starting to feel euphoric. He gets confused, seeing me squirm away, laugh and then want more.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your 'dancing'
I was brought up that crying was something that you did in private..was almost implied it makes one weak so i do find it difficult to express emotions..im a lot better than i was...but its taken a whole lot of re-learning to realise that its ok to cry.
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Oh my yes! I dance around too, usually hopping from one foot to the other when it starts to really hurt, or stomping my foot. I can hold a position, up to a point, but I prefer the bondage. That just adds an extra level of thrill, to be able to struggle against it.
ReplyDeletelol yes definitley i agree, the bondage just adds to the experience.
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This was explained beautifully. It is hard for me to cry from actual pain but the nervous anticipation of waiting to be beaten will certainly bring out the waterworks.Daddy seems to enjoy that part of it as well.
ReplyDeleteNow calling him names is probably not something he would tolerate at all.
Being tied up is a preference one has as well but Daddy says sometimes he just wants to see some self control and true obedience......easier said then done when holding on to the whipping without being chained or tied to it.
Thanks dancing
DeleteHe doesnt mind the name calling..well depends on the context and his demeanour!
With no offence intended i dont agree with the thought that being able to hold position is true obedience, for us its about enjoyment and to expect more of me than i can handle, or to imply that if i couldnt keep still is a reflection on my obedience i would find distressing.
Being tied up allows me to go much further than i would if i wasnt.
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No offense taken Tori. It is agreed that being restrained allows things to go further then if one can move around.
DeleteIts crazy because there have been times when one has totally jumped out of position into his arms begging to move on to something else, although he puts me back and we continue, once its over the craving for it to have lasted longer starts up. Then sometimes the over thinking starts....did he stop early because one didn't stay still. He assures me he doesn't, that he knows when we need to stop, he knows the safe word can be used (unless its punishment, but that's different) and we stopped when he wanted to but its still in the back of ones mind. Hoping that goes away with experience.
I enjoy bondage. I usually do not curse, but during hard play I will swear like a sailor.
ReplyDeleteI like being suspended by the wrists on toes as well.
Hug,
Joey
lol yes my language can be very colourful
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when i can get past the pain i fly that's the magic, that is transcendent. It is the place I seek.
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Yep, i like that transcendent...thats it.
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I absolutely love to read about your experiences because it's just a different flavor than I've experienced. Thank you for sharing.
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DeleteIts what i enjoy about blogging, peeking into others 'windows' such diversity.
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I echo Renee Rose's commments.
ReplyDeleteFirst, I hope you're feeling better.
Second, thank you for letting people know about your thoughts. Despite the fact that some of your readers are nasty in response, compassionate people connect with you. Why the haters feel a need to share their nastiness tells more about them than you.
Thankyou david
DeleteI dont know why i attract such nasty comments, im getting better at either ignoring them or simply removing them..you are of course quite right that it does say more about them than me....thankyou.
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It's funny mouse has always been a bit of a cry baby. Any type of confrontation can make her cry. Don't really understsnd it. It's weird and frustrating.
ReplyDeleteAlso weird, Daddy gets a bit terse if mouse giggles during play. Tho there are a few times he does welcome it.
Hugs,
mouse
hi mouse
DeleteIm really not great with displays of emotions....my upbringing has a lot to do with it....confrontation gosh no i dont like it, can fight my corner if i have to but will avoid it more if possible.
The bossman doesnt mind giggles but then its dependent on his mood, the circumstances...and my frame of mind.
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I'm such a cry baby I cry at anything whether I'm happy sad angry in pain or in the throes of passion. I cry easily during a punishment but not when we play but play is rare. And I find these days if I don't cry during punishment then I don't feel punished and I need more. Funny that. Like your sir mine likes the tears, marks, welts and blood. Puts a new dimension on the term blood sweat and tears doesn't it.
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