For over a week now, started last Monday, im to insert a butt plug in for 15 mins a day, i can choose what part of the day as long as i do it...usually when he is at work and doesnt have time to 'interfere'.
I dont like butt plugs, but for some odd reason the last time we went to have anal sex it hurt, and not a nice hurt kind of way, i mean i actually like it when it is uncomfortable, i prefer to have the minimum amount of lube used or none at all, but this was not a 'nice' hurt, it was painful and he stopped because he picked up that it wasnt 'good'.
It might have just been a one off, i dont know, its not happened before, i love anal, prefer it to 'normal' sex, but anyway its been decided that butt plugs daily are now standard routine for the time being.
Start with a reasonable sized one, and the first few days i really struggled with it, but over a week past its gotten that im comfortable moving around whilst its in, im actually liking it which is not something i have felt before....normally i have tried to avoid having them used because i havent liked them.
What i am finding interesting about it is that during those 15 minutes its focusing me on him (once i got past the negative connatations i had with them from previous experiences), not that i dont at any other times but rather it seems to be reinforcing my submission to him, very similar to other rituals we have, so i guess its becoming a ritual in that respect...and i like rituals, they maintain a sense of being grounded.
I think i want to keep this one.