Wednesday, 29 May 2013

I think i want this one to stay

For over a week now, started last Monday, im to insert a butt plug in for 15 mins a day, i can choose what part of the day as long as i do it...usually when he is at work and doesnt have time to 'interfere'.

I dont like butt plugs, but for some odd reason the last time we went to have anal sex it hurt, and not a nice hurt kind of way, i mean i actually like it when it is uncomfortable, i prefer to have the minimum amount of lube used or none at all, but this was not a 'nice' hurt, it was painful and he stopped because he picked up that it wasnt 'good'.

It might have just been a one off, i dont know, its not happened before, i love anal, prefer it to 'normal' sex, but anyway its been decided that butt plugs daily are now standard routine for the time being.

Start with a reasonable sized one, and the first few days i really struggled with it, but over a week past its gotten that im comfortable moving around whilst its in, im actually liking it which is not something i have felt before....normally i have tried to avoid having them used because i havent liked them.

What i am finding interesting about it is that during those 15 minutes its focusing me on him (once i got past the negative connatations i had with them from previous experiences), not that i dont at any other times but rather it seems to be reinforcing my submission to him, very similar to other rituals we have, so i guess its becoming a ritual in that respect...and i like rituals, they maintain a sense of being grounded.

I think i want to keep this one.

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  1. Hi tori- That is exactly as I feel! I too wear mine daily- although not for extended times sometimes 15 minutes, sometimes 30 or more. But the minute I put it in, it settles me, allows me to focus on him and yes- grounded, that is a perfect way to describe it.

    Glad you are finding the joy in it, instead of the discomfort.

    ~faithful

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    1. Its certainly brought me more feelings of contentment than i anticipated, and yes its a relief that im getting joy from it when its been something i used to resist against.

      x

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  2. There is something lovely about that plugged feeling...and mouse would argue that its, for her at least, mostly mental than truly physical. it does naturally shift her focus away from herself and back onto Daddy. The daily spankings have had a similar effect.

    Will be sad when this month is over.

    Hugs,
    mouse

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    1. Definitley agree its more of a mental impact than physical, initially i was so focused on the physical side because i havent liked butt plugs i have associated them with being uncomfortable and even painful.

      I can understand your sadness i think i would be feeling the same if he decided to stop the regular use of the plug.

      x

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  3. When I am feeling widgey, if I let Daddy know while he's at work, he will direct me to put in a plug. It does help me to feel him, and to feel my place and does have a calming, focusing effect.

    (((hugs)))

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    1. Yes its interesting how we seek these things out, to bring comfort, security, i do think it has a calming effect i would agree.

      x

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  4. Those rituals are so important for me to remember whose I am. We don't have a plug ritual, but Daddy does make me wear it from time to time just to have a physical reminder of him. I never thought that a year ago I would be saying that I'm appreciative to feel Daddy that way. Boy how things have changed.

    hugs
    bg

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    1. I like rituals, in general they provide me with a sense of security and structure, they help me in keeping me grounded and reminding me of my 'place'.

      x

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    1. It is, didnt think it would be, thought i would not like it at all lol

      x

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  6. love wearing my plug...smiles...would wear it for half a day at the most as need to let the muscles relax again after each time i wear it....it focuses and grounds me...i feel his control over me wearing my plug...

    blossom x

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