Im not sure where this post is heading, i tend to go off course at times.
In the first couple of years of our relationship it was quite fast paced, motivated i think partly by my desire to try all these new and exciting things and although it was not new to him, he 'fed' off my enthusiasm, he has enjoyed exposing me to scenarios that i had only ever fantasised about.
Then before you know it a few years have gone by and although the motivation is still there and i still get excited, its slowed down..im settled now, content, im not constantly seeking the next new thrill as i was in the beginning.
Not saying that i have done everything, thats not it at all, there is a lot more i wish to experience, but i think its similar to that initial sub frenzy stage, being so enthralled by it all because it is new and exciting, and then it does eventually settle down...its not new and shiny anymore.
Doesnt mean i dont enjoy it and crave it, the kink that is, i do, a lot, but it doesnt consume me like it used to, my focus has changed over the last couple of years, i never thought i would get so much pleasure and satisfaction in serving him in ways that are non-sexual and perhaps not kink related.
Heck i get turned on by doing the most mundane things for him, i consider it a treat being allowed to wash him in the shower, kneeling at his feet for no other reason than just because its where i feel i need to be, being given an instruction to do something for him... all these give me the same gratification that endulging in kink does...perhaps more so.
A recent relevation i had especially after us discussing me watching him with another woman and the feelings this provoked in me was that....actually i like monogamy, i have enjoyed the encounters we have had with others in the past..had some great experiences..but i dont want to share him..in any level...not because of jealousy but i enjoy the intimacy of us and i dont want to share that.
I understand all of those sentiments, tori. He is mine, I am his, I see and feel no other, nor does he.
ReplyDeleteA friend the other day said that she was feeling at a loss for 'slavey' feeling. I asked what she could do that would serve him. She replied sexual stuff or getting him a drink. I told her to take it away from the sexual realm. Do things like meet him at the door with a kiss and a drink, remove his shows, massage his feet and legs, draw his bath and lay out his items - warm his towel, do something she knows he has pending for him so he does not have to.
I enjoy doing those things for Daddy. Sure he can do them for himself, but sometimes those simple acts of service are the most profound, and feed both of us most deeply.
(((hugs)))
Thats exactly it June, service isnt just about sex, i think in general submission is about the little things that we do for our dominants because we desire to and it pleases them.
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Relationships are always ever-evolving aren't they? Honestly, tho, mouse couldn't handle seeing Daddy with another woman -- the idea just gets her all tied up in knots.
ReplyDeleteThe subfrenzy feelings.. Dunno they seem to ebb and flow at times.
Daddy is the one to suddenly bring mouse back to those feelings and it's usually when she thinks,"oh we're sooo behind that!"
Hugs,
mouse
yes they are and although im not a huge fan of abrupt change, i think they have to evolve for growth.
DeleteI used to not have a problem with it mouse, but now im really not sure i could handle it..yes tied up in knots about sums it up.
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I still like to try new things and still have a number of fantasy items on my bucket list.
ReplyDeleteI have friends who are in open relationships and it seems to work. For me, I prefer a less complicated sex life. But, I do enjoy having many play partners.
Hug,
joey
oh joey i have a huge bucket list lol
DeleteI think play only i could still be comfortable with but sex well yes as you said...less complicated would suit me fine as well.
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