Tuesday 6 November 2012

This was not what i signed up for!

In the last year the bossman has been more restrictive when allowing me to climax, im having longer periods of orgasm denial, the last 'stretch' was 4 weeks being denied relief.  I have never been allowed to orgasm, masturbate or touch myself inappropriately without his permission, the only exceptions being during s/m,  its been drilled into me that my body is his, he chooses when i get pleasure or pain, if he wants me pierced or tattooed any type of body modification really.

He has up until this past year been fairly generous with allowing me to orgasm and masturbate on the occassions i have asked, sometimes i would get denied but more often than not he would allow it.  So when the realisation sunk in (and its still sinking in) that he isnt allowing me to as much..well..its been difficult, its a change that i hadnt anticipated and dont like for obvious reasons ie i like having orgasms!

He likes me wanting he says, keeping me on the edge, desperate and full of need and only he can satisfy my need and im having that battle of  'the more im denied, the more i want it, much more than i would normally' and he is loving that im tormented.  The advantage is when he does give me release its so much stronger than it would normally be, it is better, im more pliable and open to 'suggestions' because im in the frame of mind that im so desperate that i will offer him things i wouldnt normally choose to do, things i generally only do because i have to when he insists.

But really im not liking it....what next complete chastity!! hmm deny me of his cock and we are going to be having huge problems...i dont think he would do that...well im pretty sure he wouldnt, not on a long term basis anyway but i know he can obstain from sex for a long time so im not prepared to be cocky about it and put it to him that he wouldnt......been there done that and learnt the hard way not to tell him what he would and would not do!



10 comments:

  1. I know how you are feeling. My Sir is punishing me, so ive been denied for 2 months now. Have to wait one more month before im allowed to orgasm. It's killing me...lol cause i love to orgasm too.

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    1. Oh blimey 2 months..i would be going insane lol, i hope the next month goes quickly for you.

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  2. Orgasm denial for an extended period would be a hard limit for me.

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    1. Well its not something i forseen, 4 weeks has been the longest, if it went to more than a couple a months then i think it would be something that would have to be discussed.

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  3. joeyred
    Its very hard, but it definitely is making me focus on what I did wrong. And making me think how I can be a better sub to my sir.
    Hugs
    jodi

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  4. Sorry one more thing to add. Sir and i are in a long distances D/s relationship. And he wants me very submissive when i go to see him. Which will hopefully happen before i explode...lol
    Hugs
    jodi

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    1. Jodi,

      I am sure it is very hard for you. It would make me very submissive as well.

      Hug,
      Joey

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    2. Yes i do think there is that element of being more submissive at these times, although i cant pinpoint how exactly lol

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  5. That really sucks Tori. I woud not like that all. Master says I am more submissive after a intense pain and intense orgasms so luckily he likes to keep both of those things goinn on a pretty regular basis. I hope you get yours soon and this does not become a regular thing.

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    1. It does doesnt it? lol

      Im not sure how long it will go on for, he really is enjoying me wanting..im hoping its just a phase but we shall see.

      xx

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