Monday 20 July 2015

Whatever

He said something this morning, that as per usual i have been dwelling on ever since.

"can you honestly say there isnt anything you wouldnt do if I asked you?"

to which my reply was...i dont know, because its hard to know for sure until actually confronted with whatever it might be, so i dont know.

His response was "I think you do"

It was left like that, i wanted to say...well there was that once when i couldnt do what you asked, but i have since done it, so that would have been pointless.

Its been on my mind, should my automatic response been yes?  or am i hiding behind the i dont know because i dont want to admit its a yes?

I know he would not ask anything of me that was detrimental in any way, to me, to us, so its got me exploring the whole concept of 'anything'

There are most certainly things that i have no wish to do, reasoning's varying from it simply doesnt appeal to me, to a simple i dont want to at all, and i will not like you very much if you make do them.

But the counter-argument to that is

1) being his slave, there is the understanding that it will involve submitting to things that dont appeal to me, because i do already

2)  the same applies to that which i dont want

3)  he couldnt care less whether i like him or not so long as i obey, because i do love the grumpy git even when i dislike him

4)  i know, as does he that i get off on being made to do things i dont want to do

So, it could be argued that therefore i will do whatever he asks of me, and perhaps im in denial but i still think its subject to what that anything is.

So, i wrote this with the intention of having a clear resolution, but only succeeded in getting back to square one!







13 comments:

  1. Lol, great something to ponder before bedtime. It's going to be a long night.

    This is quite the conundrum.

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    1. I was so sure when I started the post, where I was going with it, and it veered off course lol

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  3. Oh wow, what a question, Hmm, now I'm pondering too...

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. lol im still pondering, although he did say I know the answer!

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  4. My thoughts.. and they are from a sub mind not a slave, but putting myself as much as I can into your shoes..... You love him, you trust him, therefore you trust that he will always keep you safe. BUT, and there is a but which makes me consider that you could not blanket this answer without one... When he is not of sane mind. For example, what if he came home roaring drunk (I have no Idea if he drinks so is just an example.) and he says lets play with knives, and you know his hand eye coordination is not good, and he could actually really damage you. Would you refuse, for yours and his sake. Because the next day, he would be so upset with himself for hurting you in a way that was not intended. You could relate the situation to drug induced (over the counter or otherwise) Maybe very sick and delirious.. Granted the chances of him being this way are likely to be slim to none, but can you give your blanket yes without considering this. Just to reiterate, this is where my mind wandered and pondered on your dilemma. This is just my answer... I am sure you know your answer.

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    1. Thank you Linda for your thoughts, you brought up some great points which has had re-thinkihg.

      I liked the scenario you gave as it's realistic, and in those circumstance, although unlikely for us is possible, and in that case I would withdraw consent, which takes me to a whole different way of thinking...which is what has given me inspiration for my next post...so thank you.

      I do know the answer....well he says I do lol

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  5. Okay...don't hate me...

    I think you would... only because you know he wouldn't ask you to do anything with the intention of causing real harm.

    And I think that's sweet, because it's not like you would do that for just anyone.

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    1. lmao, I couldnt hate you, because I can't disagree with what you said lol

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  6. oh my!
    I feel the same way and can relate
    Great post!
    Aluv

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    1. thank you Aluv, it's always nice to hear one is not alone in these thoughts

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  7. Excellent post. Always a thrill to read.

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    1. thank you, Im just glad it made some sort of sense lol

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