Friday, 1 August 2014

What's it like?...its.....

Its a common thought, question, comment that one sees around, "what is it actually like being a slave 24/7?" sue_lally asks.

Well if i was to describe my past week it would to all intents and purposes appear very ordinary, no being kept in a cage naked all the time...alas....but i guess thats not the answer your looking for.

Its, well its, liberating.

Its being snuggled up against him in bed watching crap tv, laughing

Its being pinned down to the bed, and being brutally fucked, screaming

Its walks along the riverbank, ice creams and lazing on the grass with the daily paper

Its walks in the wood, being bent over a branch and whipped with another branch....seriously who carries a pocket knife on them!!!yeah he does!

Its talking over dinner, debating, discussing the news, work, agreeing and disagreeing

Its being told what a dirty, filthy slut i am, interrogating, provoking me

Its getting all prettied up for a night out, nice dress, sexy underwear, looking beautiful for him, and for me

Its masacara running down my face, snotty nose, tears, after a beating, still beautiful to him

Its him being concerned when my blood sugar is high or low, taking care of me

Its him hurting me, humiliating me, making me feel worthless, that i am nothing to him

Its me moaning about him stinking out the bathroom again, every damn morning

Its being in the bathroom, being pissed on, and left covered in it

Its him treating me like a leper when i have my period, he doesnt do menstrual blood

Its having needles put in my labia, and watching the blood flow when they are pulled out

Its him working long hours, tired, just wanting rest/sleep, relaxing evenings of nothing

Its him feeling stressed because of long hours, long nights in the dungeon as he vents his stress

Its all of this and more, much more.













25 comments:

  1. This is so nice..what a word hey but so nice. I began to read it to my hub and he began to shake his head.. I stopped reading it to him and said ...'you judge...don't judge..I don;t think you know you judge.' He judges me in this same way. I am trapped with him. He has put me in a cage..not like your cage, its a cage of guilt and judgement. I want the liberation of being a slave.

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    1. thank you little

      I think people judge, even when perhaps they are not aware they are, simply because they cant understand it, they dont want to understand it.

      I feel for you little, i really do, and i have been where you are, the best thing i have done, but also the hardest was breaking away from that cage of guilt and judgement.

      x

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    2. thankyou littke

      i think people judge, even when they dont think they are, is because its something they can not comprehend, they dont want to.

      I have been where you are little, one of the best but also hardest decisions i have made was choosing to break free from that cage of guilt and judgement.

      x

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  2. Love this Tori, beautifully said.

    Hugs
    Roz

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  3. Ooh, well said, well said! Made me feel all warm and fuzzy.

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  4. It's the 'and' of the contrasts instead of 'or'..... Loving and brutal, caged and liberated, etc. you explain it beautifully.

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    1. thanks, its all so very ying and yang i think, so many contrasts.

      x

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  5. As everyone else has said your description strikes a cord and is lovely. Your descriptions are some of the reasons I am embracing my own slavehood, even though I am still unable to live it (for quite) 24 hours a day.

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  6. New follower here. This was just so wonderful! I'll read this over and over.

    I can't wait to research your blog further

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    1. hi ya and welcome sub hub

      thank you very much, i will go check out your blog....right now lol

      x

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  7. Hi tori, another new follower here. Like everyone has already said - this is so perfectly worded and said. Very much looking forward to reading more of your blog!

    xx
    brat

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    1. hi ya Amber Wolfe, just checked out your blog and enjoying it, so much there that i can relate to which is great.

      x

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    2. Hi there - and thank you so much. Very happy to have you at my blog as well! Enjoying yours so much also! xx

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  8. wonderful mix of ordinariness and extraordinariness.
    Swiss army knives have a lot to answer for... not kindling for a fire.

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    1. thanks DF

      they do indeed, im convinced sometimes it needs to go accidently missing!

      x

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  9. Which of these do you like the most?

    Its being pinned down to the bed, and being brutally fucked, screaming
    Its being told what a dirty, filthy slut i am, interrogating, provoking me
    Its being in the bathroom, being pissed on, and left covered in it
    I think being brutally fucked?

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