So its all over for another year, and as much as i love it (xmas that is) im now needing to get the house back to some sort of normal, i dont like chaos and xmas is always chaotic what with being inundated with family (why do they always want to come here!) and i dont like being out of routine, every year i plead my case to just pack up and bugger off out of it but its never going to happen.
I need re-centering...to be.
Lately i have realised im craving objectification and humiliation more than i am s/m, not saying i dont feel the need for pain as i do but im leaning more towards the mental aspects, and i need it most when there is disruption. I have tended to look for pain to sate my masochistic needs but emotional sadism is enough, he can be cruel without having to inflict pain on me with 'tools', and i love it, it can be subtle or brutal....subtle sometimes has the biggest effect.
He does not need to shout, his voice is calm but demanding, his words need not be aggressive or fueled by anger but still they leave an impression, he does not need to say anything at all, his expressions, his stance, his eyes tell me all i need to know.....his silence can be deafening.
His dominance can be subtle and that is enough, when before i would need to have a physical demonstration of it ie via s/m to make me 'feel' submissive, to give me that sense of 'grounding' when i need it, im realising i dont need it, i enjoy it but i dont need it.
I love the subtle signs of dominance too; you are so right tori.
ReplyDeleteHope you get straight soon!
im getting there thanks Joolz, i took the Christmas tree down yesterday, i just need it all tidy and in its place, i do have ocd which they are all very patient with lol
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Yes, I agree.
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thanks sin, sometimes im not sure i put accross well what i mean lol
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subtlety doesn't usually get nearly enough credit imho.
ReplyDeleteSometimes it's even better than anything else. Just because.
yes i would definitley agree with that, its the little things!
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This is a really good share. Thanks for doing it.
ReplyDeletethankyou, and your welcome.
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I completely agree!
ReplyDeletethanks Kitty, subtly us understated but so important
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I enjoyed reading your post and have a happy new years
ReplyDeleteThankyou, hope you have a great one too.
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Subtlety (WOW that is a hard word to spell! I spelled it wrong three times before I finally got it right!) can be an amazing thing when used correctly, in many aspects of life. One of my favorite "reminders" of BD's dominance is simply a look...one particular look that gets my sub juices flowing and makes me want to submit to his will regardless of what he wants...
ReplyDeleteSo, yeah...I'm feelin' ya, tori! :-D
oh i wouldnt fuss to much about spelling, its not my greatest ability lol
Deleteahh yes the look....there is something delicious about it.
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very thoughtful post.
ReplyDeleteI love it best when BIKSS is calm and almost gentle in his instructions, loving, patient... but with a sense that nothing he says will not be done... willing and eagerly. Perhaps it makes me more willing to comply when said in this way.
hi ya fondles
Deletei think yes it does make one more willing, i hadnt looked at it in that light.
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Nice that his dominance can be subtle.
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it is, i like it.
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